thank you for turning my angsty and mundane little world on its head
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just listened to America n the song brought back so many good memories. can still remember the all-day long practices with us pulling every string possible with Vicky to get us out of as many classes as we could. and only ever going for chem [add math once in a while too] and all the W people would be missing all the time because they'd all be nerding away in class. and we'd be down at the chapel area all day. i used to struggle so much to finish copying all manlystanley's homework on time.


sometimes the grease people would come and share our space and we'd go squish in the lecture theatre and dance into the chairs. and most of the time we wouldn't really be practising, just bumming around till Vicky turned up and shouted at us. especially at the guys. 8) the emo moments when no one would listen and poor lynn got so frustrated. when we finished choreographing america, it was the sweetest moment. bending the no girl boy contact rules to the max but we had vicky on our side. learning the backflips [almost getting killed by soonk] our ditched fans..me and elsa spraying them all afternoon. the corsets [oh love =)] dancing for the fats. fuming over poor yan and the idiotic buttoned sleeves issue. behind the shed back of the lecture theatre quiet moments. arguing. rain. self made costumes and swishy skirts. light unsure hands. funny moments; dancing with our eyes closed which resulted in many many awkward bumps "Geraldine: Hahaha..halfway through Asher hit Sarah's butt and he just- STOPPED!" and the only way we could get the guys to practise was to play pepsi cola. which was real fun ;)

escaping the scary makeup artists and going for tan with funny hair. our mcd's on the morning [practically a ritual now] and sweet dreams the night after.


m super emo now =(

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so anyway i watched POTO and


omg


it was like


orgasmic


seriously. there are NO words to explain how enormously big the moment was. after years and years of playing the score till i know it inside out and singing random bits from the original recording with yan in school [way before all the phantom movie hype started] to reading the book to watching the movie with yan and fuming over the weirdly changed bits to kelefeh-ing in both the school versions to to to...everything. i've been in love with the Phantom of the Opera since i was like TEN.


yan it would've been hilarious if i'd watched it with you :D


when the auction scene started all the words started coming to me in my head before the auctioneer said them. it was like listening to the cd again and everything was almost as i imagined. and when the man said "lot 666.." i actually shivered with excitement and when the covers of the chandelier were whipped off and the all too familiar theme exploded i like omg almost cried. o.O the sets were breathtaking and the costumes were soooo gorgeous. and during that quiet tense bit before the masquerade [the scene i was most excited to see] i wished so much there was someone next to me whom i could squeal in excitement with and who would KNOW what was coming next. the masquerade scene was bvngpertpncphegn. it seriously blew me away. their costumes!! and the masks!!! and the MUSIC OMFGSPAZ!!!! carlotta was brilliant. madame giry was brilliantly scary ballet mistress. meg's singing was brilliant. the directors were a LITTLE bit more clumsy-fool than i imagined. raoul was also more lithe and graceful than i pictured him as [slightly mark darcy-ish] but then i read later that he was also in cats so that explained it. phantom was just OMG. phantom was LOVE. phantom was AWESOME. AWE-SOME. BRILLIANT!! more brilliant than all of them!! daae's tomb was for some strange reason quite touching and sad..i'd always been slightly put off that song but now whenever i hear it i'll be seeing the enormous cross in my mind. and the gates.


*happy sigh*




oh and when christine sings "have you gorged yourself la la la am i now to be prey to your lust for flesh?" she sang flesh and it sounded like fish!! just like how tanya used to sing it at one point!! mom didn't notice though. durr.. and they sang the funny lyrics for think of me =( the ones about flowers and fruits of summer fading which were the lyrics we used in school too..instead of the lyrics i was so used to. =( boo. but apart from that everything was brilliant!!!


momster was cool too though. she was smart enough to leave me alone for the whole show and not say anything till we went out of the auditorium. when we stood up to leave my whole body was stiff because i was leaning forward in my seat, elbows resting on knees the whole 2.5 hours which is something i've NEVER done in a production ever. my arm was totally asleep and i only started to feel it again after clapping nonstop when the performers took their bows. i cheered shamelessly for phantom because he's such a darling i love him. according to mom i didn't move an inch throughout the whole show. and she caught me mouthing the words to myself at some of the speaking bits which was quite embarrassing.


i wanna watch it again!!!!




shopped a bit. got to see far east properly this time because there was NO ONE following me everywhere in the most annoying manner possible. and i found this bracelet which is like the coolest ungirliest piece of jewelry i have EVER seen. it was this thin black vintage metal guitar thing which was curved slightly in that way so it wraps snugly around your wrist on this thin gold chain and i just fell in love with it instantly! but it was a whopping 39SGD. so obviously, me being me, i deliberated for 3 whole days over whether i should get it because it was SO expensive but i was SO in love with it and finally on phantom night mom said she'd treat me to it and i was like yay!! but when i went back the next day the stupid shop was CLOSED. and it STAYED CLOSED all the way until we left [seriously..i ran back in to check right before and almost missed the bus] which was like at ONE PM D: =(( boo. sigh. so..if anyone's popping down to singapore anytime soon? it's at ztamp in far east and it's right up on the counter draped over a lampshade arg i waaant itttt =(( singaporeans? anyone?

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you know how sometimes there are these people who come off as totally annoying and who just rub you the wrong way even though you hardly even know them? and you don't really like them but you don't want to say anything bad just in case they turn out to be really nice and you end up feeling like a total heel even though you know people around you feel the same way as you do? and sometimes you sit there being bimbotic and shallow thinking about people like that..not even thoughts of your own just stuff other people have said about them. and then for no reason at all something really horrible just...pops out of your mouth. and you desperately wish you can take it back because it's nasty and mean and you don't even feel that way but you can't?


sigh


it's quite terrible how big a bitch i can be sometimes.


i guess that's the difference between bitchy people who try to be nice and genuinely nice people.


no prizes for guessing which one i am


and i'm really really really really really really sorry for saying what i said because it was totally uncalled for and horrible and mean [even though i dont know you and you hardly even know i exist]

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wtvrrrr


two nights after the spm nightmare i had a nightmare about the ballet exam


asher: poor you. this is serious psychological trauma man.


ms leong: aiyo. it's OVER!! OVER!!! BOTH OF THEM ARE OVER!! don't be so stressed out. concert's coming.


oh yeah. concert's coming. evil bad guys. i suggested she do something on circus sideshow freaks who happen to be dark and twisty cos then we get cooler music but she said it's all done out already. oh well. i still prefer last years =(

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yay :) just got TWO emails that made me really really happy.


1. i have FINALLY joined something remotely extracurricular so that my CV won't look so pathetic :)) was quite pleasantly surprised when i got the Avoice email. i thought they forgot all about me or something. whee! quite happy about this :)


2. thanks sw :) letting people know that their pay is on the way is a surefire way to cheer anyone up. so, all you people who keep NAGGING ME about when we're getting our moolah: it's COMING. 8)



once upon a time i found myself in melbourne on holiday with my family. we were at this beach bummy place which had this really cool shop as part of the hotel we were staying at that sold reallly cool looking handmade stuff which actually had no function other than to make you look like you're an artistic person simply because you have artistic things all over your room. anyway. we were looking around the place when suddenly we bump into minon who's not there on holiday or anything but simply THERE all on his own doing nothing in particular and he was wearing this really loud hawaiian shirt like the kind weiyan always wears except not as graphic. so i go up to minon and go hi and he goes hi and i go what are you doing here and he goes nothing have you studied for bio yet im soooo prepared are you prepared i heard the paper's going to be really hard this year and i go minon what the hell are you talking about im not taking bio and he goes what are YOU talking about bio's TOMORROW don't you know? the paper's going to be in kelantan are you prepared i'm soooo prepared. and i go huh?? and suddenly it hits me or more like i remember that we're actually in the middle of our spm which is done in this really strange manner in which we have to travel to different states to sit for different papers and we are actually having this random 2 day break in between bio and whatever was before bio and this is when i remember that i am NOT sooooo prepared for it. so anyway i start panicking and i go minon ohmygod i havent studied yet and i don't have my sukses book with me can i borrow yours? and he goes no you cant and i go why not and i want to punch him really badly because he has this strangely smug look on his face that says hahahah i have studied and you havent [im sorry minon, if you're reading this i swear you're nothing like this in real life] and then he goes because mine's in ENGLISH duHhh and i freak out and go mom! mom! bio's tomorrow!


and then i woke up in this really familiar state of utter panic and started scrabbling around on my bed for my bio book thinking "shit oh shit okay okay i'll cover the lymphatic system and digestion now and do ruminants quickly on the way to school oh shit what time is it??!?!?!?!!!!" for about 2 minutes until i realised that the spm was 4 months ago and not only had i finished studying for bio i'd finally gotten my A1 and was DONE WITH IT. after which i sat there, in my pyjamas, really confused for another 2 minutes before i went back to sleep.


man. i think the spm is going to haunt me forever o.O

went for the tony anthony thing again last night which was actually the exact same thing as what we heard on thursday night. anyway. that's not the point of this post


GUESS WHO I SAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


GOHKAILIAN!!! D:


we walked in and my eyes immediately zoomed in on this unnervingly familiar looking face. GARH. brought back so many sickeningly bad memories. ptui ptui ptui. evon and eugene were with me too and she came over.. i thought she was going to talk to them because THEY'RE the ones in her school and all but she came up to me and went "hello sarah" in that scary voice.


me: hello madam [do i get dc for this? huh? do i?]


ms goh: what are you doing now?


me: *thinking* i'm sitting here talking to you- DUH i'm doing A-levels at HELP madam *cheesy smile*


ms goh: HELP ah? *long pause during which i half expect her to ask if asher's there too* not MCKL ah? *creepy smile*


me: ......er. no.


ms goh: *CREEPIER SMILE*



EYACK! PPAGH!! GARH!! bad bad evil memories.


angie: eh she remembers your name!


me: i don't like her >:(


spent the rest of the night being nostalgic and thinking about good times in upper sec. especially all those nights sleeping at school and the lonely moments at the chapel ground in the early hours of the morning. staying back till 8 getting ready for cf camp and not getting any sleep during famine. foldover moons. math class where no math ever happened [some things never change] and crazy saturday mornings rushing from tan to interact stuff back to tan back to school to church. concert practice. class skipping. chapel shed- our hideout. getting pissed off at the chapel shed invader. chem lab moments. the non walls of our form 4 classes and hearing selva scream at 4L next door.


i miss school

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putih


ok i so dont blame you if you didnt get that XD hahaha. syok sendiri only. pssh


whee! i heart science! i heart labs! i heart labs when nothing remotely labby happens! hahaha. today in chem we did the random halide test experiments. and we got to play with conc asid sulfurik sulphuric acid [hahaha. i remember last time when, even after 8 months in tan, i couldn't figure out what conc. stood for until asher told me it was concentrated*is shy*] in the kebuk wasap fume cupboard. OH and i broke a penitis dropper :( i was putting that black rubbery bit back on it when the tip just snapped off in my hand and i yelled F***! because i thought it stabbed me [it was kinda sharp] and sasha looked at me like *GASP!* and seriously i have to work on the whole swearing issue. maybe i'll get someone to fine me everytime i do. anyway. i broke a penitis dropper and didn't have to pay for it. hahah.


on tuesday in the physics lab nothing remotely physical happened because we were supposed to do this thermocouple experiment [ELECTRIC-EWWWWW!!!!] and, me being me, the experiment TOTALLY FAILED. so me and steffie just gave up. and very soon after we did the rest of our table gave up. so we fooled around while everyone else was working [everyone except billie who came over to join us heheheh] so yeah. i learned how to do that cool thing where you snuff out a candle with your bare fingers!! it's SO COOL!!!! :DDD wheee!!


i love science


but chemistry is a constant source of heartache for me. :( the stupid stupid stupid trials thing. and then. ms ting's tests. which havent been going too well et all. and then. yeah. thats all i guess. i love labs though. love love love labs labs labs. especially our cool lab coats! *waggles eyebrows*


am still quite miserable about the ballet exam screwups but, like asher said, ITS OVER. so im not going to think about it anymore. MEH. concert soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

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so...


today was like. the exam of the year.


the whole thing was somewhat like an out of body experience. like i was floating around inside the hall watching myself stumble and fall and smile frozenly through every mistake. i winced and felt the sympathy for myself when my scarf caught in my bun and i panicked, trying to get it free and still look professional, just as i would've if it had been me watching some other person mess up the same way. i saw myself grow tired. i saw my legs grow leaden. i could hear myself struggling to breathe. but it wasn't me in there dancing. it was like it was someone else.


anyway. what's done is done. i can't say i'm not happy with how it went because it was definitely better than yesterday's class. but at the same time i'm kinda disappointed i didn't do better. i messed up quite a few times. fell off my pirouette and also the high develope thing that's supposed to be held on demi pointe. and of course the horrid scarf in bun moment. and i lost the rhythm during the crazy spinny ending of my character dance and stumbled for that too. AND i got the beginning of one of our barre exercises wrong too but thank god we aren't graded on that. it could've been better but it ALSO could've been worse considering how much i was shaking with terror. and my legs weren't so wooden today which was a relief because my ankle was hurting again.


went for lit after that and got a 30/50 for her assessment. BIG change from the last one where i got like.. 15/50 *hides* whee. at least one good thing happened today.


oh min on's mum was really nice to us throughout the exam. she let us practise in one of her empty studios and we took the opportunity to bercamwhore.

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ok..no more ranting. because i have a super cool Jesus who will make everything turn out finetomorrow!! =) and even if it doesnt then..who cares. it probably wont matter very much in the larger scheme of things anyway


"trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight"
Proverbs 3:5-6




AAAARRGGHH!!! ARRRGH! ARgh! ARRRGGHAGAGAHGAGGGRGRHRGRGRG!G!G!H!G!!!!



ballet exam is

TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
MMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOO
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOWWW


farmfarmfarmfarmfarm


bloody hell i am not ready i am not ready i am not ready


NOT NOT NOT NOT READY READY READY READY FARM FARM F**K EFF SHIT DAMN OOPS.


No..it can't be tomorrow =( I am so umprepared for the exam. And it's our LAST grade exam EVER. AND IT'S SOLOOOOO WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE SOLOOOO =((((((((((( And our examiner is EVILLLL!! EVVVIIIL!L!L!LL!!!!! SHE MAKES IT CLEAR THAT SHE DOESN'T LIKE YOU!! AND SHE NITPICKS!!! %^%&%$^$%U^#### AND I HAVE NO HAIRNET AND MY HAIRPINS ARE CRAP AND AND AND AND NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO


i am seriously scared shitless.


eff eff eff eff eff eff eff


class today was horrible. sort of like a last meal.. THAT GIVES YOU DIARRHEA!!it was soooo bad. my legs did that that that THING where they don't move the way i want them to and my muscles go all limpy and pansy ISH! i was so farming frustrated. and it was so mega upsetting because my work was starting to get better last wekk and now it's back to SQUARE SHITTY ONE ARGH! am so so so nervous. and terrified. and nervous.


PRAY FOR MEEEEEEE =((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((


okay. breathe in. breathe out. think happy thoughts. lalalalala laa laaaa laaaa!!!! mashed potatoooesss!!! and greeyyyyys!!! ninety six for physicsss!! getting barred from laaaan freaking exaaaam!!! hahaha!! so funny!!! wheee!!!! woohoooo!!! bridget jones and S-A-T-C!!! hee hee hee!! CATS!! YES!! america!!! bwahahahaha!! muahahah!! waahaha


asherrr dont sleep tonight ok if i have a nervous breakdown i want to call you =(

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Just got back from Bentong! [doesn't Bentong sound like some malay verb? Bentong? Dia berbentong dengan jirannya] So anyway..Bentong was cools. The trip up was one cramped, noisy, song-filled affair which was funky and foodfull. We reached there and set up for the youth meeting which was kinda sad because everyone was away for Ching ming [is that how you spell it??] fellowshipped with the few youths that came and messed up guitaring. Angie and I bagged the showers first which was a MISTAKE because as soon as we'd finished someone announced that we were all going to this waterfall. SWT! We ended up being the only girls in the water though which was slightly warped. Discovered that there isn't a single 7-11 in the whole of Bentong Town. Had a lizard fall on me in the car which was slightly shocking. I swore [as opposed to screamed] again which is NOT GOOD. And, after a supremely yum dinner for under 10 bucks we came back and played shithead all night long. The guys woke us all up because they were outside our window making noise because they couldn't sleep because of too loud snoring. heh heh heh. so hilarious. i thought someone was getting toothpasted at first because of all the giggling and hyperactivity. at morning service the next morning [duh, when else] 99% of us were 99% asleep. One of us just fell completely asleep. was wishing it was me :( sunday school was so awesome. everything was done impromptu. the kids were adorable and i was going psycho stalking them with my camera. all of us [save a very minute few] were PUT TO SHAME because of our banana-ism whereas kids half our age were all babbling away in fluent mandarin+english. *is shy* played with the kids a lot, watched the kids leave, left, had famous bentong ice kacang [apparently its famous la..i wasnt aware of that] and set off for home which was an even squishier affair than the ride there.


must study chem now must study chem now must study chem now.


i think im coming down with a sorethroat la. this is bad. exam is FOUR DAYS AWAY!!! ARRRGH!! ARRRGH!! AAARRRGH!!!!


EUGENE LEE! I AM ADDICTED TO FISHERMAN'S FRIEND NOW AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT $^%&%$.

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