ugh. screwed up lit. first time i put so much effort into preparing for a paper that i actually ENJOY answering and i completely messed it up. the first ten minutes when i opened the paper and looked at the questions my brain completely blanked. COMPLETELY BLANKED. it's never done that before. so i just scribbled down whatever nonsense quotes were slowly coming to me while i waited for it to warm up. bloody hell. sorry ms tan!


i sat at yeong han's table and left him a message. halfway down the stairs i realised my notes were all missing and went back up only to discover i'd left my ic in the hall as well. examiners were all mega amused. one of the cleaning aunties gave me lembaga paper that i think elsa left in her table. i went to starbucks in the morning to study and when i got my coffee the guy was like


"SPM ahh?"
*sad nod*
"What subject today?"
"English lit?"
"Really?? Why did you take that?!"
*don't ask me, i don't know shrug*
"hahahaha good luck"


no, adam. i was kidding. he wasn't hot.


mmmph. came home and cheered up self with chips and sleep and the company of my favourite person in the whole wide world, bridget jones.


yesterday was fun though! we ditched lit and ms tan took us to delicious. had heaps of food and fun.


ish. mega lazy to blog. i might as well be talking to myself

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OH MY GOD.......


NO SEJARAH FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!!!!!! *jumps around madly*


UMNO? What the hell is that? Adat perpatih whata? And who the hell is this Rahman Talib person? *flings book far far away* NEVER HEARD OF HIM!!!! WOOOHHOOOO!!! SO HIGHHH!!! Because not only do I have NO MORE SEJARAH....


I also have no more BM!!!!! Wheeeee!!!!! HilmihilmibobilmibananafanafofilmimemimomilmiHILMI SCHMILMI!! He's as history as history! :D:D:D No more horrible rumusans..no more memorising of bulat tak datang bergolek pipih tak datang melayang peribahasa nonsense..no more insanely draining karangans *grin grin grin*


In other news..Sejarah 2 was quite a screw up despite the fact that it was the first, last and only time I had so many sejarah facts in my head. I couldn't really stay awake because I slept at like 3 the night before cramming and being nervous *runs away from stones people are throwing at me* Sejarah 1 was hilarious. The invigilator people couldn't figure out how to work the mike so they didn't tell us to stop in time and we had like an extra 5 minutes. They finally just yelled at us from the stage to put down our pencils. Teehee. Practically the whole hall came out early for English two. Math was DEAD EASY. I almost didn't have enough time to finish my karangan so most of it is complete CRAP. And while I was doodling on my question paper 2 minutes before time was up for Sejarah 2 BLOK DUNIA suddenly popped into my head. So I wrote it down as a kesan for WW2 [which I remembered nothing about..for some reason I could only remember WW1]. Just that. Blok dunia. I'll buy the lembaga lunch if I get an A for sejarah. Them and Yen Ping whose lovely lovely tips came out =) OH! THE STUPID BM TIPS WERE ALL WRONG. WRONG WRONG WRONGGGG!!! Not a SINGLE one of the komsas questions was spotted. Grrr.


Oh Sher's birthday is today :D Hahaha. I somehow managed to come up with a present during all my let's procrastinate moments. HEehee. I so love giving presents. =)


OH!! Let me tell you blog [I shant say that because no one is reading] about my horrific morning!!!

#1 My alarm doesn't ring. I don't know for what reason but it just DOESN'T GO OFF *kicks it*. I wake up late. Obviously
#2 My driver's motorbike breaks down somewhere on the highway and I have to wake my parents up to get them to send me to school. We leeave the house at 7.30 [we have to be in school by 7.30]
#3 Halfway to school..I stick my hand into my bag and guess what..my CALCULATOR IS NOT THERE!!!!!!! [this is maths day btw] IT'S MISSING!! AWOL!! GONE!! I start hyperventilating [quietly because I don't want my parents to find out one of the most vital pieces of equipment in my life is missing at a most crucial moment] and message Yan and Lynn to ask for help.
#4 This RETARDED policeman who's doing the traffic stops us as soon as we reach the traffic light and lets this other bunch of cars go and we sit there waiting and waiting and waiting for like 15 minutes and everyone's getting impatient but no one more impatient than ME who is sitting for SPM in TEN minutes and MISSING A CALCULATOR. I throw my textbook at his head and he finally lets us move [I wish]

After that things sort of settled down a bit. I run across the road and into the canteen smack bang into the middle of this massive Math discussion and yell "DOES ANYONE HAVE A SPARE CALCULATOR?!?!?!?!? *INHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALE*" Which has the desired effect of instantly grabbing everyone's attention. People scrabble around in their stuff and Kim is like "Oh..my..God..you..didn't..bring..your..CALCULATOR?!" And Zabedah is staring at me like she's going to chew off my head one minute and screaming across the canteen at this random form four kid for a calculator the next minute [i think he was totally freaked]. Thank GOD Shanon had a spare. Lol. Shanon of all people. =) He saved my life. I was having nightmarish thoughts about doing my math paper without a calculator and completely screwing up a free A..doing all the sin cos tan calculations by hand and working myself up so much i was murderously close to breaking down and committing suicide. When I went upstairs after that it turned out that a million people had spare calculators because it has become somewhat of a trend to own 4/5 calculators. How come I only have one =( *sulks* but yeah. It was alright in the end :D Hehe.

Ooh. KayLee and Caryn turned up today too..WITH CAKE! How genius 8)

OH!!!!!!! And get this...I'M THE CENTRE OF THE HALL!!!! Right SMACK in the centre. 11 people behind and in front of me..3 people of my right and left!!!! WOOHOO!!! How cool is this :DDDD It's not as fun as being right at the back though =( Kinda miss that but WHO CARES!!! I'm the PUSAT of the DEWAN! :DD

Pictures from the first day of SPM



Eeek..why is everything so bluee



Lynn in scary study mode



Beebee in not-so-scary pretending-to-study mode



the real beebee 8)



yan and her BIG BAG OF FOOD!



random picture of a picture from donkey years ago [well..last year actually]




8 down 16 to go!!! I'm exactly ONE THIRD through my spm!!!! *is high*

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AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!


WHERE HAS THE PAST WEEK GONE?! It's DISAPPEARED!!! VANISHED!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! This cannot be happening. I can't NOT be prepared for the biggest exam of my life [so far]!!! *dies* no wait *hangs self* That's better.


Gosh. And I'm totally regretting going to church today because now majesty [or to be more specific, the guys parts for majesty which choir sang for honours day my gosh was that only this year??] is stuck in my head..as well as bits from Nickelback's photograph which is fast becoming the world's most annoying song.


Last Sat we had a stress thingy at YF with Chee Beng's brother as speaker. He said that when someone is stressed out it shows in their behaviour [or rather, change of] which is totally true. I'm super duper grumpy these days and snappish and short tempered and impatient and mega hyper uber jumpy [my OBS photo unpeeled itself from the wall and I almost had a heart attack] I've never seen so many zits on my face at once and my hands are perpetually freezing cold [what happens when I'm damn nervous] and my dreams get weirder and weirder every night..like. The other night I dreamt that I walked into the exam hall wearing nothing but a towel. And then it jumped to this scene where I discover that the Chem rujukan book I've been using is completely wrong and there are actually this whole bunch of long named chemicals I'm supposed to know and have NEVER HEARD OF. And then this other thing where I'm caught "cheating" because my laptop suddenly appears in front of me. And this other one where I'm doing BK but I don't know anything [that sort of happens in real life anyway]. And then last night I had this MEGA-LY weird dream involving Sher, Premesh [random Tan guy], Elsa, Bing Yuen, the pope, my brother, Fat P, a murder case and breast cancer. All very strange.


Am relying very very heavily on tips right now. Not good. *prays very hard*

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Tomorrow is officially THE last day of school EVER. EVER EVER EVER EVER. If I had more time I'd totally do an annual blow by blow account of my entire WMS life but I don't. Gosh. Still can't get my head around the fact that there'll be no more school in less than 24 hours. =( Kinda sad.


Ooh. I might have alternate plans for prom now :D Not that anyone cares but..heehee. It makes me feel all giggly. *giggles*


Sad little attempt at making something nice that [almost] didn't originate from a doodle. I doubt boss will approve but what do you expect when you give an SPMer like..a week to come up with some cover thingo? Anyway it's just a stupid mag..no one really looks at the cover anyway :D
In sixpointfive days....we're all gonna [fill in with verb of your choice]

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Prems at our last Sejarah lesson ever

Random candid moment when Soonk threw Lynn's camera cover at Elsa's face

Soonk..er..stripping?

Looking up 0_0

Yan taking a picture of me taking a picture of her taking a picture of me etcetc..

Unsuccessful attempt to take a picture of Soonk #1

Unsuccessful attempt to take a picture of Soonk #2

The surprised look! Woohoo!!

G-Union

Their door

me and Saj =) she had to put up with my nonsense for an entire year





Empty basketball court

Not empty basketball court

door picture [meh-forgot to rotate it]

me and Jason =)

It's SOONK! Hahahah

Really random picture [hahaha Jiash stop trying to be as cool as me laa 8)]

High Class Lepakers 8) [probably the closest we've ever come to having EVERYONE in 1 picture]

Me and Steffie =))

Bee me and Yanniee [watch me rhyme!!]

Me, Cecilia and Shirley whirley

Me and boss. Heeheehee she looks so cute

Us piled on top of Zabs


Us and Norashima. Her BM class was so hilarious..we used to applaud everything she said

The day after that was jamming session!! Yayyyyy!!!! :D Jamming session TOTALLY kicked butt. None of our friends could come though which kinda sucked but we forgive them. Pastor Gurmit Singh was awesome!! He did the alter call and after that we worshipped and it was AWESOME!! [i need a word other than awesome o.O]. There were some mistakes here and there [I know I TOTALLY messed up Now that You're Near..I was so zonked out I couldn't remember the chords and it was really hard to read the paper in the dark] but no one really cared. It was awesomeawesomeawesome and I'm so glad it wasn't cancelled in the end. =) Oh and Fat P's blessing was kinda funny. The service thingo itself was really short and then after that..we had FREE LUNCH!! [wow =O] in the LIBRARY!! [WOW!!] Me and Sa totally stuffed ourselves..going for second helpings and all and timed everything wrong and got up to chuck our plates as soon as Fat P was getting up to make his speech so we found ourselves stuck at the front of the library [RIGHT IN FRONT ON HIM O.O] for the entire duration of his speech. With the stupid leaky cup leaking mega sweet coffee onto the tablecloth and not being able to do anything about it.

Kay Lee the drummer

Jiash the bassman 8)

Peako the drummer

Me and Jiash camwhoring from under the library table

Sa and her tongue

Me and mine o.O

I got the silence is golden!! From all the way at the back of the library zoomed in like ten times. MMuwahaha.



Sa laughing [as usual] while praying. Tsk tsk tsk

Mr President

Elsa the poser

My halfhearted attempt to be a poser too [why do I look exactly the same in all my pics?? =(]

Us and Vicks [ew bad lighting]

Us with Anne and Grace

Moments before jamming session :D:D

Yeah so anyway. I can't believe there's only one more day of school left. I'm not exactly choked up about it but I suppose it's still pretty sad and all. =( and then after that I'll never see some people ever again. Can't believe that either. =((


I don't want to grow up yet

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Our brilliant plan to somehow get Lynn to school on Friday and SURPRISE the bejeesus out of her WORKED!! Muahahaha!! There was massive confusion on Wednesday with lots of calling and frantic SMSing RE: Lynn's coming/not coming to school the next day. In the end it turned out that no one else wanted to go to school and I would basically be stuck with..school..all day long o.O Bee was trying to make plans to get to Lynn's house but Lynn the evil plan foiler was..well..foiling her plans. It worked in the end though. Heheheh. After school on Wednesday I went to PWTC Starbucks to order the cake for Lynn. There was a massive confusion about cake cancelling too caused by confusion over whether Lynn was coming. Basically we ordered another cake at the Telawi branch and cancelled it and reordered it and apparently forgot to cancel the PWTC one [Yan- they just called me to tell me, very annoyed-ly, that my cake was ready >.<] And there was this whole plan to con Lynn into coming by telling her we wouldn't get our forecasts otherwise which we decided against in case she got mega pissed that we lied to her but when Crystal called her in class and put her on loudspeaker people started shouting it out because I totally forgot to tell them Not to and ooops. o.O So that got her worried and she decided to come but then something happened with Richmond and he told her not to come so she said she wasn't going to so then I called and convinced her to come. [I still don't know what made her come- Lynn what made you come? I totally wouldn't have really] And all this was happening on the shite-est day in the universe after running off to KLCC in secret and getting the Postsecret book [!!!!!] I still can't believe Kinokuniya had it!!!! "We have one copy" Muahaha!! I was grinning like you wouldn't believe when the lady said that. HEeheehee =) I couldn't resist taking a sneak peek and it's totally theraputic! Made me feel heaps better after reading it =) Anyway. We conned her into thinking that we totally didn't care enough about her birthday to do something and that we her present was this box of crap accessories [me and Yan's old junk :D] and it was soo funny how we had to try and go about the day pretending everything was normal..hiding the massive card Yan made and presents [I kept my bag closed for the ENTIRE day] :D and the fact that towards the end of the day everyone was starting to disappear [to the canteen where the cake was!], covering everything up with lots of lame distractions ["Hey Lynn which one is Kai Sheng again?" Omgosh I CRINGE when I think of that =P] And yeah. It worked in the end =) Lynnie- don't be silly..you didn't REALLY expect us to just leave your birthday alone just because of some stupid exam did you? =) Come ON. We love you a bit more than that.


Once in a while [very rarely] I'm reminded of why I absolutely HATE to cry. HATE IT. It makes you feel like shit and totally knocks you out after that. Gah. And it's heaps worse if you've been holding it in for days and days because then the slightest, more unrelated thing will totally trigger it off. *POINTS AT LYNN ACCUSINGLY* You!! IT WAS YOU!! Your SMS was the one that did it!!! ROARRRRR!!!! For no reason at all random tears just started rolling down my face [much to my horror], dripping all over my physics papers while all the other Normal people who were at the bus stop stared curiously at me. Once I got finally got home and in the shower it got even worse. And when I came out it GOT EVEN WORSE. And I couldn't stop till I fell asleep. Gah. How do people do it? It's so. completely. exhausting.


Am googling/yahooing/devantarting/gettyimagesing pictures of "transformation" for the school mag cover which I somehow ended up doing. [I still don't know how] I have a dreaded feeling I'm going to screw this up massively but oh well.

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never again


people get angry when i dont say anything. people get angry when i do


i think i'll go boil my head. hopefully then at least my brains will work a little better

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Wow okay. So the CF jamming session is in *counts* 6 days and so far we have practised a very impressive total of *counts again* ZERO SONGS. Wowee. This year's is the complete opposite of what last year's was like. Up till today [the day from hell] I still pretty much had faith that somehow we'd be able to pull off jamming session but now, with everyone so discouraged, I'm getting really down about it myself =)= I was really looking forward to it though. For reasons you probably wouldn't be able to guess.


Anyway. I WAS having a terrible day yesterday BUT THEN! Heehee. In the evening my mom noticed this big brown evelope on the table which got mixed up with all of her mail because of the bigness and brownness of it. She opened it and this whole pile of STUFF came spilling out and she was like "Errr...I think this is yours.." and after much confusion I realised that they were LETTERS!! From all the darlings in school =) Ohmygoodness I was smiling like an idiot while reading all of them. Heeheehee. Totally made my day and that explained why everyone kept asking strange questions about "receiving anything yet" and "DIDYOUGETMYLETTER?!" [Zabs] Heheh. There was one from her too. =) Thanks guys. It was super super sweet.


Studying is going nowhere. I shouldn't even BE here [here as in blogging not here as in on my bed] but I've had such an extremely crap day [at school+getting home late (ten minutes past five)+being late for Tan (which starts at five)+ballet(OWWOWWOWW)+only one meal the entire day+ no more cash =(+ lots and lots of add math] so I figured I deserve a tiny break. Oh something interesting though. Somehow in all the big mess of Xian Wei being in Africa [??] and the rain and being late I ended up getting offered a ride from Sher's mom [TERRIBLY TERRIBLY nice of her-again] and she drove to the end of the line [Sentul I think- or was it Sentul Timur? Are WE Sentul or Sentul Timur? Can't remember..ANYWAY] where apparently there was this thing last week where the train crashed into the barrier thingo at the end and I completely missed it because I never read newspapers o.O Like how freaky is that?! Wonder what the driver was doing. I bet he was doing what I probably would've been doing in an empty train- running up and down the carriages and dancing on the chairs.


This WAS going to be a diatribe of sorts [hehehe ask me what it means!! ASK ME!! SATS vocab is so much fun] but I ended up adding that to the massive collection of drafts I have rotting in my dashboard and typing out this..crappier..toned down version of whatever I had to say *smiles peacefully*


Ooh. It's my grandpa's 81st today. =) He's used to do cool tricks for us when we were kids and play funny songs on the piano that I still don't know the names of. He used to tell me all sorts of things about random trees, half of them I'm pretty sure he was joking about. He used to buy excessive amounts of junkfood from the roti man to share with us. He would buy 4D, him and my maid, and they would laugh at each other when their numbers ALMOST hit the jackpot. Now he's got diabetes and still gets my little cousins to sneak him sweets once in a while. He can't play the piano anymore because he's blind in one eye but he has this funny half smile on his face when he hears piano music. He takes really really long walks all the time and comes to church with us =) heh.


I can't believe I just blogged about my grandfather. Lol. I'll just write it off as temporary 2.30AMinsanity. Oh and I just realised..everyone seems to blog the way they talk except ME because I never talk but there are like 300 posts worth of crap on my blog. =( If I blogged the way I talk every post would be like


School sucked.

*long silence*

Meh.


Heehee. I think Yi Lin's mentioned before how different the blog me is from the real me. ARGH. This post was supposed to end about half a page ago. *rambles on*


Meh.


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blogger being idiot not uploading anymore pics grr mumble grumble OKAYOKAY =( sejarah beckons

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