Saturday, September 30, 2006
Hoboy
Okay. So we got our Chem marks back yesterday and I could've passed without paper 2 if I had SHADED MY ANSWERS PROPERLY. Gah. I have 88/100 so far and if I'm lucky enough to get a 72 for paper 2 I'll get an A1 for Chemistry O.O *prays really hard*
Well it's a good thing something nice happened at least
To all who are wondering, yes, I am still alive and I'll see you all on Monday at least. Andd errrr..yeah. To all my awesome friends..thanks =) seriously. I would've died without all of you.
I was actually doing alright until this morning.
This is like what..the billionth time? I should be used to it by now and besides..it's better off like this anyway =)
Oh and I lost my cross onThursday somehow. =( I think I dropped it walking to the school gate but I went back to look and couldn't find it =(((((( Am miserable and completely clueless about how I'm going to tell my parents..
So fxcking tired and....
i miss you
Okay. So we got our Chem marks back yesterday and I could've passed without paper 2 if I had SHADED MY ANSWERS PROPERLY. Gah. I have 88/100 so far and if I'm lucky enough to get a 72 for paper 2 I'll get an A1 for Chemistry O.O *prays really hard*
Well it's a good thing something nice happened at least
To all who are wondering, yes, I am still alive and I'll see you all on Monday at least. Andd errrr..yeah. To all my awesome friends..thanks =) seriously. I would've died without all of you.
I was actually doing alright until this morning.
This is like what..the billionth time? I should be used to it by now and besides..it's better off like this anyway =)
Oh and I lost my cross onThursday somehow. =( I think I dropped it walking to the school gate but I went back to look and couldn't find it =(((((( Am miserable and completely clueless about how I'm going to tell my parents..
So fxcking tired and....
i miss you
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
TRIALS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR-ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Watch me sleep till tomorow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^.^
Lit was insane. I wrote ten pages of crap non stop for two and a half hours and just barely managed to finish in tine. Wheras Steph and Sa where like selamba-ly taking their time doing only like 2 questions =.= how unfairrrrrr. They could have helped me answer my short stories la. I was seriously rushing to finish the poem question and my handwriting was totally illegible because my hand was freaking tired and cramping up after ten pages of crap and I couldn't feel my fingers after the paper was over. I got totally carried away writing about LOTF and wrote and wrote and wrote like 3 and a half pages and then like 3 pages about R&J and like a pathetic 3++ pages for poems and short stories. Don't expect I'll do too well though. o.O
Bio was screwed up.
Today was severely screwed up.
Goodnight all.
Watch me sleep till tomorow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!^.^
Lit was insane. I wrote ten pages of crap non stop for two and a half hours and just barely managed to finish in tine. Wheras Steph and Sa where like selamba-ly taking their time doing only like 2 questions =.= how unfairrrrrr. They could have helped me answer my short stories la. I was seriously rushing to finish the poem question and my handwriting was totally illegible because my hand was freaking tired and cramping up after ten pages of crap and I couldn't feel my fingers after the paper was over. I got totally carried away writing about LOTF and wrote and wrote and wrote like 3 and a half pages and then like 3 pages about R&J and like a pathetic 3++ pages for poems and short stories. Don't expect I'll do too well though. o.O
Bio was screwed up.
Today was severely screwed up.
Goodnight all.
Labels: landmark posts
WOOOO!!! I LOVE LOTF ITS SO FREAKING COOL BUT FREAKING FREAKING SCARY AT LIKE 3 IN THE MORNING!! Wish LOTF was all we had to study for Lit there's SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT EVERYTHING!!! MMMMMmmmmmmm!!!! Wish we were allowed to bring in like..a sheet of quotes or something..like a formula sheet. IT'll make everything so much easier!! WHeee!!!! Bit worried about the memorising but AH! PFFT!!
Feeling so highhhhhhh!!!! LAST DAY OF TRIALS!!!!!!
^.^
Feeling so highhhhhhh!!!! LAST DAY OF TRIALS!!!!!!
^.^
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Woohoo. Watch me skip Tan! *hides*
Yeah. I decided to skip tuition because
1. Asher and Jiash are both skipping too
2. I found out that tuition actually starts at 5 at like..5 o.O Has it always started at 5? Really? I always thought it was 5.30..have I always been coming at 5.30? Omg I'm so confused now
3. It's Bio and Lit tomorrow. Not Physics and Physics
4. My head hurttttsssss =(
So yeah. I'm sitting here atm listening to Jars of Clay and right now I'm doing this cool thing where I study Lit off cliffsnotes.com :D Heehee. I'm a genius la. It's sparing me the insanity of looking up quotes for everything by myself. And I get to read model essays too. And I don't have to come up with character sketches on my own I ABHOR character sketches. :DDD I'm going to look for all my assignments later though because those are like..precious and they're, at the moment, all over my room o.O
I survived Chem without studying for it the whole night but I wasnt so lucky for Sejarah =( Took a Panadol last night because my head was being an ass and before I passed out for the night I told my mom to wake me up in an hour (or two) and she DIDN'T! And you know what else she did? She took my alarm clock away from me!!!! FDRH%U%&$#$I^&(^ WHAT THE?!?!? Does she want me to pass my exams or not?!?! So anyway. I'm failing Sejarah. Like..fun.
What the..they don't have a character analysis of Tybalt? Is he not as important as Mercutio like hellooo? I'll shoot something if I have to go hunt for every single time Tybalt has thrown a fit [two hundred gazillion] Ah whatever lah. It's just Lit :D
Yeah. I decided to skip tuition because
1. Asher and Jiash are both skipping too
2. I found out that tuition actually starts at 5 at like..5 o.O Has it always started at 5? Really? I always thought it was 5.30..have I always been coming at 5.30? Omg I'm so confused now
3. It's Bio and Lit tomorrow. Not Physics and Physics
4. My head hurttttsssss =(
So yeah. I'm sitting here atm listening to Jars of Clay and right now I'm doing this cool thing where I study Lit off cliffsnotes.com :D Heehee. I'm a genius la. It's sparing me the insanity of looking up quotes for everything by myself. And I get to read model essays too. And I don't have to come up with character sketches on my own I ABHOR character sketches. :DDD I'm going to look for all my assignments later though because those are like..precious and they're, at the moment, all over my room o.O
I survived Chem without studying for it the whole night but I wasnt so lucky for Sejarah =( Took a Panadol last night because my head was being an ass and before I passed out for the night I told my mom to wake me up in an hour (or two) and she DIDN'T! And you know what else she did? She took my alarm clock away from me!!!! FDRH%U%&$#$I^&(^ WHAT THE?!?!? Does she want me to pass my exams or not?!?! So anyway. I'm failing Sejarah. Like..fun.
What the..they don't have a character analysis of Tybalt? Is he not as important as Mercutio like hellooo? I'll shoot something if I have to go hunt for every single time Tybalt has thrown a fit [two hundred gazillion] Ah whatever lah. It's just Lit :D
Mmmmmmm #3 on my list of things to do before I die: Send in a postsecret. =) I've actually made a bunch but I haven't sent them in yet. They're hiding in my room somewhere and the more I look at them the more I want to send them in. o.O
Another one to add the the growing list of bad days >=( Urgh.
ONLY TWO MORE PAPERS!!!! *Dances and stabs all the other people singing about having only one more paper*
Labels: nerd posts
Monday, September 25, 2006
ARGH OMGOODNESS WTH IS WRONG WITH ME IT'S MONDAY I SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT SLEEPING BECAUSE WHEN I WOKE UP I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE SUNDAY I HAVEN'T STUDIED ANYTHING AND I KNOW NUTS ABOUT CHEMISTRY ARGGGGHHHHH I'M SOOO SCREWEDDDDDDDD
i actually had hopes of getting an A for trials =(
i actually had hopes of getting an A for trials =(
Labels: oh buggerr.., rants
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Woah. It's like someone chucked me into this pit of bad mood for the weekend and locked the door and will only let me out like ten minutes before the exam tomorrow or something. This weekend, despite it being the long awaited two day period of sleep, has been extremely anal for no apparent reason. It's strange..I slept the entire day on Friday. Like the ENTIRE day. I slept as soon as I got home from school..fell asleep before I even got out of my uniform..I had dinner, showered and slept some more and woke up the next morning, just in time for tuition.
It hailed after tuition too. How cool is that? And the roads were like..flooded with mud and icky gushy yellow water because of all the freaking construction everywhere.
I think that's around where I started feeling extremely grumpy.
And I even snapped at someone that's how crappy I was feeling. Ah well. And this useless slump I'm in isn't really helping the studying much. In fact, as I type this I am opening [yes, I multitask] my Chem book for the first time all weekend. And I have no idea about ANYTHING in Sejarah at all and I have to go look up and memorise quotes for every single question possible for Lit. For R&J AND LOTF AND 6 poems AND 4 short stories. *shoots self*
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
A not-so-massive-anymore one between my left thumb and index finger where I slashed myself with a blade when I was seven [it was an accident btw..I wasn't exactly the most suicidal of kids]
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Delirious poster, Altered frequency poster and the birthday collages =)
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Crap
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Stuff they don't play on the radio. Like coldplay and postal service and jars of clay
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Er.... no..I don't even know my blood type..
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
For exams to be OVER [I'm just going to leave Lynnie's answer here because I agree with it probably more than she does]
7. WHO DO YOU MISS?
Himherthisthateveryoneinthewholewidworldhim
8. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
Er. Liew? Hahaha. I think we were having a really retarded conversation about middle names at CG weren't we?
9. THE BEST TV SHOW EVER CREATED:
MEhh...Lost? Desperate housewives? Scrubs? ANTM? SATC? CSIOHHHH!!!!!!!! GREY'S ANATOMY!!! I LOVEEEE ITTTT!!!!
10. THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
My famileeee =))
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Depends..
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Um. Hahah. Err...yeahhhhh*skips*
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
MMMMMM!!!!! RALPH COOLLL!!!!
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Black and black ;)
15. WOULD YOU RATHER BE SMART OR FUNNY?
I'd rather be funny. It's a real drag being a boring person I'm so sick of it.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
COFFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFFFFFFFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEE [agreed]
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
PEPPERONI!
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Blehh I just had dinner. Mmmm...a proper assam laksa! The one I had was too sickeningly sweet o.O
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Hahaha. Ian. He actually hung up on me
20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
Oh yeah. Totally. I communicate through silence but no one understands me.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Er. I remember getting this massive stuffed penguin from someone when I was like..idk..4? BUt I'm sure I got stuff before that. Apparently I was a very lovable baby when I was happy.
22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
Oh DO I
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Newwwp not that I know of
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Duudeee...anything I can afford o.O MNG if only I could
25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I've said it before. Anything with four wheels and an engine
26. WHAT COLOR IS IT?
Bluegrey-ey
27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF EXERCISE?
Dance
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
What a stupid question. How the hell do you choose whether you want to fall in love or not. Life would've been so much easier if you could.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Spelling it out in the sky with a bazillion dollar helium balloon arrangement FACE TO FACE LAR DOIIIII
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
21 =)
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Er. Do I care? No. Brunettes
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
zero three two two eight two er...I forget XD
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
STUPID PEOPLE WHO STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FREAKING ESCALATOR AT THE LRT STATION LIKE THEY CANT READ THE SIGNS OR NOTICE EVERYONE ELSE STANDING ON THE LEFT AND MAKE ME MISS MY TRAIN YES ASHER I AM REFERRING TO YOU TOO.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY?
Yeap
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Mmmmmmmm coffeeeeeeee *drool*
36. TATER TOTS OR FRIES?
Wtf is a tater tot?
37. FIRST JOB?
Oh. Receptionist slash ballet teacher =DDDD
38. EVER PRANK CALLED SOMEONE?
Hahahaha. Like all the time. I used to do it with Billie like 24/7
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Arguing over whether London+Paris+Lourve+Paris Opera House would make a better holiday than Los Angeles+Laz Vegas+ Disneyland+CIRQUEDUSOLEIL!!!! or not.
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Boob job. Duh. That counts right?
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I'm too lazy to start studying YET
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Ummmmmmm.....*thinks very hard*....... SKIPP
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Oh PFffftttt. My dad'll probably find some illegal way to get his wine anyway.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A hug and kiss and lots of lurve 8)
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Ermph. zero
46. WHERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
OHhh.....only maybe the other 20 billion sarahs out there. o.o the sarah in the bible I think. I have a feeling my parents picked names out of a hat.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Nope
48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Hmm....MY left index finger I guess. I think it's my strongest finger :D All those freaking bar chords. Muahahah
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Er. Last last Tuesday. I ALMOST cried before the day of Bio 2 though because I couldn't seem to study and I knew nothing and I was so tired and stressed out and I just wanted to die.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
NO! I hate my handwriting
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
eh?
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Muahahah! Whoever's unlucky enough to marry me next time'll be the only one who gets to find out
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Some random BSB album that's totally pirated. I can't stand boybands I don't even know why I have it.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I'd bore myself to death oh my goodness
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
I probably have at some point but I never do anymore
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Well..kind of. I wouldn't go and make friends with someone who looks like a rapist
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
On my poor overabused underappreciated guitar. *pats Joshua*
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
School o.O sad but true..
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Sometimes. And then I always get screwed over and I say I won;t anymore and it happens all over again.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
This ancient rabbit whose head's practically coming off. I still have him ^.^
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Err...*checks* 251
62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeah when I feel like being horrible. But I suck at being sarcastic
63. DO YOU KNOW ANYONE FAMOUS?
Newp
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No =( Not that I really want to though
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
I don't look for stuff.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Er. Sare Shumin Rah Barah Marah Rahrah loads more ;)
67. HOW MANY PAIRS OF SHOES DO YOU HAVE?
SOME CRAP PITIFUL AMOUNT LIKE FOURTEEN?! LYNN-WHAT THE!? Like. 2 pairs of flip flops. Two pairs of heels and ONe pair of fake adidas.
68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope
69. WERE YOU UPSET ABOUT STEVE IRWIN DYING?
Er. It was sad and all but it didn't really affect me
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
SORBET!! ANY SORBET I LOVE SORBET!
71. ARE YOU LAZY?
I'm too lazy to even bother answering this.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Blue orange green. And black I suppose since it's the only colour I ever seem to wear
73. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
Coldplaypostalservicedeliriousjarsofclayswitchfoot
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Those are the ones that really hurt right? None
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Oh why not. There are only two other people who ever do these memes..one's done it and the other is the person I stole it from
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better..than making you my bride and slowly growing old together =) Postal Serviceeee *HEARTS*
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Assam Laksa!
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Mmmm...my mom.
79. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hands :D I'm weird like that..I know.
80. FAVORITE THOUGHT-PROVOKING SONG:
Shiver =)
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
Muahahahaha. That person lah. No actually I don't enjoy hating him .Argh. Idk. Moral?
82. FAVORITE DRINK:
COFFFFFEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN
What the...Gemini I guess.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Dance
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
It used to be this cool random mix of brown and red but now it's just some yucky brown. Stupid sun
86. EYE COLOR?
Er...brownish I guess. Idk.
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Newp
88. SIBLINGS?
None. I live with two horrible monsters who claim to be my brothers. I don't know where the hell they came from.
89. FAVORITE MONTH(s)
December =)
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
YESS!
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
OMG I cant even remember the last time I watched TV. I think it was Desperate Housewives on Tuesday o.O
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
December 24th
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
YEss...shyness rules my life >.<
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Apparently winter sucks. But after summer non stop for 17 years..a winter would be cool 8)
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs ;)
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
RelationshiP
97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Hm. Me. Hahah. Omigod I am that predictable.
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Everyone else because they're all STUDYING NOW LIKE I SHOULD BE
99. Where's ..99?
Right behind you
100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
MAyyyyyybehhh. I quote here.
It hailed after tuition too. How cool is that? And the roads were like..flooded with mud and icky gushy yellow water because of all the freaking construction everywhere.
I think that's around where I started feeling extremely grumpy.
And I even snapped at someone that's how crappy I was feeling. Ah well. And this useless slump I'm in isn't really helping the studying much. In fact, as I type this I am opening [yes, I multitask] my Chem book for the first time all weekend. And I have no idea about ANYTHING in Sejarah at all and I have to go look up and memorise quotes for every single question possible for Lit. For R&J AND LOTF AND 6 poems AND 4 short stories. *shoots self*
courtesy of wins' spanking new [well not quite anymore] camera phone ^.^
A meme!! To cheer me up =)
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
A not-so-massive-anymore one between my left thumb and index finger where I slashed myself with a blade when I was seven [it was an accident btw..I wasn't exactly the most suicidal of kids]
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Delirious poster, Altered frequency poster and the birthday collages =)
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Crap
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Stuff they don't play on the radio. Like coldplay and postal service and jars of clay
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Er.... no..I don't even know my blood type..
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
For exams to be OVER [I'm just going to leave Lynnie's answer here because I agree with it probably more than she does]
7. WHO DO YOU MISS?
Himherthisthateveryoneinthewholewidworldhim
8. WHAT'S YOUR MIDDLE NAME?
Er. Liew? Hahaha. I think we were having a really retarded conversation about middle names at CG weren't we?
9. THE BEST TV SHOW EVER CREATED:
MEhh...Lost? Desperate housewives? Scrubs? ANTM? SATC? CSIOHHHH!!!!!!!! GREY'S ANATOMY!!! I LOVEEEE ITTTT!!!!
10. THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
My famileeee =))
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Depends..
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Um. Hahah. Err...yeahhhhh*skips*
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
MMMMMM!!!!! RALPH COOLLL!!!!
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Black and black ;)
15. WOULD YOU RATHER BE SMART OR FUNNY?
I'd rather be funny. It's a real drag being a boring person I'm so sick of it.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
COFFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEFFFFFFFFFFEEEEEEEEEEEEE [agreed]
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
PEPPERONI!
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Blehh I just had dinner. Mmmm...a proper assam laksa! The one I had was too sickeningly sweet o.O
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Hahaha. Ian. He actually hung up on me
20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
Oh yeah. Totally. I communicate through silence but no one understands me.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Er. I remember getting this massive stuffed penguin from someone when I was like..idk..4? BUt I'm sure I got stuff before that. Apparently I was a very lovable baby when I was happy.
22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
Oh DO I
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Newwwp not that I know of
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Duudeee...anything I can afford o.O MNG if only I could
25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I've said it before. Anything with four wheels and an engine
26. WHAT COLOR IS IT?
Bluegrey-ey
27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF EXERCISE?
Dance
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
What a stupid question. How the hell do you choose whether you want to fall in love or not. Life would've been so much easier if you could.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Spelling it out in the sky with a bazillion dollar helium balloon arrangement FACE TO FACE LAR DOIIIII
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
21 =)
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Er. Do I care? No. Brunettes
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
zero three two two eight two er...I forget XD
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
STUPID PEOPLE WHO STAND IN THE MIDDLE OF THE FREAKING ESCALATOR AT THE LRT STATION LIKE THEY CANT READ THE SIGNS OR NOTICE EVERYONE ELSE STANDING ON THE LEFT AND MAKE ME MISS MY TRAIN YES ASHER I AM REFERRING TO YOU TOO.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE COUNTRY?
Yeap
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Mmmmmmmm coffeeeeeeee *drool*
36. TATER TOTS OR FRIES?
Wtf is a tater tot?
37. FIRST JOB?
Oh. Receptionist slash ballet teacher =DDDD
38. EVER PRANK CALLED SOMEONE?
Hahahaha. Like all the time. I used to do it with Billie like 24/7
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Arguing over whether London+Paris+Lourve+Paris Opera House would make a better holiday than Los Angeles+Laz Vegas+ Disneyland+CIRQUEDUSOLEIL!!!! or not.
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Boob job. Duh. That counts right?
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I'm too lazy to start studying YET
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Ummmmmmm.....*thinks very hard*....... SKIPP
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Oh PFffftttt. My dad'll probably find some illegal way to get his wine anyway.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
A hug and kiss and lots of lurve 8)
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
Ermph. zero
46. WHERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
OHhh.....only maybe the other 20 billion sarahs out there. o.o the sarah in the bible I think. I have a feeling my parents picked names out of a hat.
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Nope
48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
Hmm....MY left index finger I guess. I think it's my strongest finger :D All those freaking bar chords. Muahahah
49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Er. Last last Tuesday. I ALMOST cried before the day of Bio 2 though because I couldn't seem to study and I knew nothing and I was so tired and stressed out and I just wanted to die.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
NO! I hate my handwriting
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
eh?
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
Muahahah! Whoever's unlucky enough to marry me next time'll be the only one who gets to find out
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Some random BSB album that's totally pirated. I can't stand boybands I don't even know why I have it.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I'd bore myself to death oh my goodness
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
I probably have at some point but I never do anymore
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Well..kind of. I wouldn't go and make friends with someone who looks like a rapist
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
On my poor overabused underappreciated guitar. *pats Joshua*
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
School o.O sad but true..
59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Sometimes. And then I always get screwed over and I say I won;t anymore and it happens all over again.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
This ancient rabbit whose head's practically coming off. I still have him ^.^
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Err...*checks* 251
62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeah when I feel like being horrible. But I suck at being sarcastic
63. DO YOU KNOW ANYONE FAMOUS?
Newp
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No =( Not that I really want to though
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
I don't look for stuff.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Er. Sare Shumin Rah Barah Marah Rahrah loads more ;)
67. HOW MANY PAIRS OF SHOES DO YOU HAVE?
SOME CRAP PITIFUL AMOUNT LIKE FOURTEEN?! LYNN-WHAT THE!? Like. 2 pairs of flip flops. Two pairs of heels and ONe pair of fake adidas.
68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope
69. WERE YOU UPSET ABOUT STEVE IRWIN DYING?
Er. It was sad and all but it didn't really affect me
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
SORBET!! ANY SORBET I LOVE SORBET!
71. ARE YOU LAZY?
I'm too lazy to even bother answering this.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
Blue orange green. And black I suppose since it's the only colour I ever seem to wear
73. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BAND?
Coldplaypostalservicedeliriousjarsofclayswitchfoot
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Those are the ones that really hurt right? None
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Oh why not. There are only two other people who ever do these memes..one's done it and the other is the person I stole it from
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Tell me am I right to think that there could be nothing better..than making you my bride and slowly growing old together =) Postal Serviceeee *HEARTS*
77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Assam Laksa!
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Mmmm...my mom.
79. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hands :D I'm weird like that..I know.
80. FAVORITE THOUGHT-PROVOKING SONG:
Shiver =)
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE:
Muahahahaha. That person lah. No actually I don't enjoy hating him .Argh. Idk. Moral?
82. FAVORITE DRINK:
COFFFFFEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN
What the...Gemini I guess.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Dance
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
It used to be this cool random mix of brown and red but now it's just some yucky brown. Stupid sun
86. EYE COLOR?
Er...brownish I guess. Idk.
87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Newp
88. SIBLINGS?
None. I live with two horrible monsters who claim to be my brothers. I don't know where the hell they came from.
89. FAVORITE MONTH(s)
December =)
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
YESS!
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
OMG I cant even remember the last time I watched TV. I think it was Desperate Housewives on Tuesday o.O
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
December 24th
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
YEss...shyness rules my life >.<
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Apparently winter sucks. But after summer non stop for 17 years..a winter would be cool 8)
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Hugs ;)
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
RelationshiP
97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Hm. Me. Hahah. Omigod I am that predictable.
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Everyone else because they're all STUDYING NOW LIKE I SHOULD BE
99. Where's ..99?
Right behind you
100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
MAyyyyyybehhh. I quote here.
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Heehee. What a strange day 8)
Anyway.
Thank God I fell asleep on Tuesday night and at least got ONE night of sleep because I ended up not sleeping again last night. o.O Except for like..one hour maybe? When I fell asleep and my mom woke me up again. And I TRIED to study Physics but it was a lot harder (and more troublesome) than it usually is because of all the new crap we have to memorise. And ALSO because..like..you know when some random thought pops into your head and starts bugging you. And it sort of sesars everything else out and you CANT GET RID OF IT?!?! ARGH! For some reason Sharadda popped into my head last night (I think it had something to do with her being Physics+everything else genius) and it would've been completely fine...IF I HAD BEEN ABLE TO REMEMBER HER NAME!! Ohmygoodness I cant tell you how annoying that was. For half the freaking night/morning all these random S names kept popping into my brain but they were all WRONG. Then when I came to school and the first thing I did was ask Xi-Lin and she totally made my morning.
Phew
Then that's when I realised I knew nuts about Physics and almost died.
But I suppose it was alright. The essays totally SAVED me because THANK GOD there were form four topics. =))) mmmmm *hearts form four Physics* Paper three was kinda crap though because I couldn't figure ut how to make my stupid experiment connect to the question. o.O Like..do you malar the daya and measure the pecutan? Or malar the jisim and measure the daya? Or measure everything and make up your own formula??WHAT IS IT?!?! Gr. So much for getting an A for Physics la. Add Math would've been alright except that by the time we got to the paper my head was seriously about to fall off my neck and all I wanted to do was sleeep. So I sped through most of the questions but got stuck in the stupid log question. I CANT BELIEVE I COULDNT DO A LOG QUESTIONBDHFJTFH$G%G%*^%UYRSTWR!!!!!!!111 ARGH.
Ohyeah. Some nut kept calling my phone during Physics and the first time it rang I was so asleep I almost picked it up. o.O Hehe. That might've been pretty funny though. MIGHT HAVE
Anyway. Kasih Sayang is kepekaan dan perasaan cinta yang mendalam dan berkekalan yang lahir daripada hati yang ikhlas.
Or something like that.
Time to study "moral"! I KASIH SAYANG U ALL! :D
Anyway.
Thank God I fell asleep on Tuesday night and at least got ONE night of sleep because I ended up not sleeping again last night. o.O Except for like..one hour maybe? When I fell asleep and my mom woke me up again. And I TRIED to study Physics but it was a lot harder (and more troublesome) than it usually is because of all the new crap we have to memorise. And ALSO because..like..you know when some random thought pops into your head and starts bugging you. And it sort of sesars everything else out and you CANT GET RID OF IT?!?! ARGH! For some reason Sharadda popped into my head last night (I think it had something to do with her being Physics+everything else genius) and it would've been completely fine...IF I HAD BEEN ABLE TO REMEMBER HER NAME!! Ohmygoodness I cant tell you how annoying that was. For half the freaking night/morning all these random S names kept popping into my brain but they were all WRONG. Then when I came to school and the first thing I did was ask Xi-Lin and she totally made my morning.
Phew
Then that's when I realised I knew nuts about Physics and almost died.
But I suppose it was alright. The essays totally SAVED me because THANK GOD there were form four topics. =))) mmmmm *hearts form four Physics* Paper three was kinda crap though because I couldn't figure ut how to make my stupid experiment connect to the question. o.O Like..do you malar the daya and measure the pecutan? Or malar the jisim and measure the daya? Or measure everything and make up your own formula??WHAT IS IT?!?! Gr. So much for getting an A for Physics la. Add Math would've been alright except that by the time we got to the paper my head was seriously about to fall off my neck and all I wanted to do was sleeep. So I sped through most of the questions but got stuck in the stupid log question. I CANT BELIEVE I COULDNT DO A LOG QUESTIONBDHFJTFH$G%G%*^%UYRSTWR!!!!!!!111 ARGH.
Ohyeah. Some nut kept calling my phone during Physics and the first time it rang I was so asleep I almost picked it up. o.O Hehe. That might've been pretty funny though. MIGHT HAVE
Anyway. Kasih Sayang is kepekaan dan perasaan cinta yang mendalam dan berkekalan yang lahir daripada hati yang ikhlas.
Or something like that.
Time to study "moral"! I KASIH SAYANG U ALL! :D
Labels: nerd posts, rants
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
WAAAAAAAAAAAArrRGGHGHGHH!!
The funniest thing happened just now [and by just now I mean like gazillions of hours ago]. I went to sleep at 6..okay wait. I shall rephrase that. I FELL asleep at six because I was so burnt out even though I got a pretty good night's sleep. Slept and slept and slept and only woke up because I felt like I was being eaten alive by the stupid freaking mozzies. I look around and everything is dark and I check my phone and OMGSHITSHITSHIT!!!! IT'S SEVEN FREAKING FORTY FIVE I'M LATEFOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND I HAVEN'T STUDIED ANY PHYSICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 So I was rushing about trying to function normally and read Physics at the same time until I realised..
Wait a minute.. I usually leave for school at SIX forty...not seven forty..someone would've woken me up by now
And its awfully dark to be seven forty in the morning..
And come to think of it..I don't remember having dinner last night..
o.OO.OO.OO.o*is confused*
It took me ages to figure out that it was still today and I'm not screwd YET I still have time and..chances are I definitely wont be waking up late tomorrow morning. :D What a moment.
Hm so I've already survived day three of trials and I'm already coming down with a horrible combo of Bags+Dark circles+Flu+ZITS+Headacheandnauseaanddizziness. It's like..the exam experience value combo meal..or something. Yeah you can add unbearable lameness to the list too. Yesterday was just horrible. Bio AND Sejarah were completely UNDOABLE. Math was alright though..I answered all the questions like Zabs told us too but only because I had way too much time and drawing plans is actually quite fun once you get the hang of it ^.^ Today was just something else though. I thought it would be damn relaxed and all..English and BM [which isn't really THAT relaxing but whatever la..can survive] and Physics 1 but NOOO. First of all our Directed compo was some psycho format letter that only Asher managed to get correct and..yeah I'm going to lose mega marks there because
1. I wrote it in the completely wrong format
2. It was a damn boring topic so my compo was damn boring.
3. I was all out of steam thanks to my way-too-long continuous compo
I quite enjoyed writing my other compo though ^.^ It's not GOOD but I liked writing it. Took me ages to think of a story for some reason and one idea actually crossed my mind but I ditched it because I couldn't really think of much to say then after the exam I turned around and found out that Crystal had actually written the compo I ditched. Hehehe. How cool is that. Maybe ideas are actually flying around in the air like molecules and if you grab the good ones then good for you but if you're slow you're stuck with the crap ones.
Omg ignore me I'm so retarded today..
And BM OHMYGOODNESS was just unbelievable..I couldn't do A THING. My summary is screwed up..my lit is screwed up..my tatabahasa is SCREWED BEYOND BELIEF butI suppose I managed to crap through the novel questions alright. I felt like just giving up halfway through and I actually was just sitting there not writing anything for quite some time [like 20 minutes] before I realised there was no way I could bring myself to pass up a half empty paper and I would seriously regret it later. Because my paper one sucked like sht. Mmm..Physics was alright I suppose..it usually is. Can do but must think very hard. o.O
OH and for the first time yesterday I actually SLEPT in an exam [I think it was during Math].I NEVER sleep in exams..most of the time I sit there and doodle the time away or just watch everyone else doing stuff [Leong and Zabs are particularly entertaining] or if I'm really tired I sort of just lie down and close my eyes but I don't actually SLEEP. Yesterday I SLEPT. Like a real SLEEP with like a DREAM and all and I only woke up when Gobes told us we had like 3 minutes left [personally I think all teachers get a real kick out of miking during exams. It's like..cool 8)] and I woke up and was so dazed for one second I almost stood up. I don't know why. And I havent been sitting with people before papers this term because night-before studying isn't enough I there's no way I can cram last minute if I'm surrounded by people I usually get high around. Absolutely no way.
Physics physics Add math tomorrow. My brain is going to get a major freaking workout I just hope it doesn't fuse. And pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease no electric questions >.< *prays hard*
The funniest thing happened just now [and by just now I mean like gazillions of hours ago]. I went to sleep at 6..okay wait. I shall rephrase that. I FELL asleep at six because I was so burnt out even though I got a pretty good night's sleep. Slept and slept and slept and only woke up because I felt like I was being eaten alive by the stupid freaking mozzies. I look around and everything is dark and I check my phone and OMGSHITSHITSHIT!!!! IT'S SEVEN FREAKING FORTY FIVE I'M LATEFOR SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AND I HAVEN'T STUDIED ANY PHYSICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 So I was rushing about trying to function normally and read Physics at the same time until I realised..
Wait a minute.. I usually leave for school at SIX forty...not seven forty..someone would've woken me up by now
And its awfully dark to be seven forty in the morning..
And come to think of it..I don't remember having dinner last night..
o.OO.OO.OO.o*is confused*
It took me ages to figure out that it was still today and I'm not screwd YET I still have time and..chances are I definitely wont be waking up late tomorrow morning. :D What a moment.
Hm so I've already survived day three of trials and I'm already coming down with a horrible combo of Bags+Dark circles+Flu+ZITS+Headacheandnauseaanddizziness. It's like..the exam experience value combo meal..or something. Yeah you can add unbearable lameness to the list too. Yesterday was just horrible. Bio AND Sejarah were completely UNDOABLE. Math was alright though..I answered all the questions like Zabs told us too but only because I had way too much time and drawing plans is actually quite fun once you get the hang of it ^.^ Today was just something else though. I thought it would be damn relaxed and all..English and BM [which isn't really THAT relaxing but whatever la..can survive] and Physics 1 but NOOO. First of all our Directed compo was some psycho format letter that only Asher managed to get correct and..yeah I'm going to lose mega marks there because
1. I wrote it in the completely wrong format
2. It was a damn boring topic so my compo was damn boring.
3. I was all out of steam thanks to my way-too-long continuous compo
I quite enjoyed writing my other compo though ^.^ It's not GOOD but I liked writing it. Took me ages to think of a story for some reason and one idea actually crossed my mind but I ditched it because I couldn't really think of much to say then after the exam I turned around and found out that Crystal had actually written the compo I ditched. Hehehe. How cool is that. Maybe ideas are actually flying around in the air like molecules and if you grab the good ones then good for you but if you're slow you're stuck with the crap ones.
Omg ignore me I'm so retarded today..
And BM OHMYGOODNESS was just unbelievable..I couldn't do A THING. My summary is screwed up..my lit is screwed up..my tatabahasa is SCREWED BEYOND BELIEF butI suppose I managed to crap through the novel questions alright. I felt like just giving up halfway through and I actually was just sitting there not writing anything for quite some time [like 20 minutes] before I realised there was no way I could bring myself to pass up a half empty paper and I would seriously regret it later. Because my paper one sucked like sht. Mmm..Physics was alright I suppose..it usually is. Can do but must think very hard. o.O
OH and for the first time yesterday I actually SLEPT in an exam [I think it was during Math].I NEVER sleep in exams..most of the time I sit there and doodle the time away or just watch everyone else doing stuff [Leong and Zabs are particularly entertaining] or if I'm really tired I sort of just lie down and close my eyes but I don't actually SLEEP. Yesterday I SLEPT. Like a real SLEEP with like a DREAM and all and I only woke up when Gobes told us we had like 3 minutes left [personally I think all teachers get a real kick out of miking during exams. It's like..cool 8)] and I woke up and was so dazed for one second I almost stood up. I don't know why. And I havent been sitting with people before papers this term because night-before studying isn't enough I there's no way I can cram last minute if I'm surrounded by people I usually get high around. Absolutely no way.
Physics physics Add math tomorrow. My brain is going to get a major freaking workout I just hope it doesn't fuse. And pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease no electric questions >.< *prays hard*
Labels: nerd posts
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
maybe asher was right. i should've just gone to sleep. because even after 4 hours of studying i still dont know enough bio to write an essay
screw it la
screw it la
DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!!
DIEdiedieDIEdieDIeDIEEEeEeeeEe
DIEDIEDIEE SEILORRRRRR
diediediedieDIEdieDiedIediEdyedaidi
crapp!diediedie
SCREW YOU LA FREAKING MOSQUITOES!! GO BITE SOMEONE ELSE TO DEATH OHEMEFFGOODNESS!!@!#@$#$^&%*^*^(^*^&;$%$%$^$&^!!!!!!!
Damn pissed already wei
Add Maths was pretty doable. Screwed up pengaturcaraan linear graph and completely missed ut a question in Section A because was busy chucking in last minute extra qs in B and C. Managed to do sukatan membulat question but no one else seems to have done it so I have no idea if it's right. Crapped my way through BM and Bio 1 was scarily alright.
Changed my mind. Don't hate Bio. I LOATHE IT WITH A PASSION.
DIEdiedieDIEdieDIeDIEEEeEeeeEe
DIEDIEDIEE SEILORRRRRR
diediediedieDIEdieDiedIediEdyedaidi
crapp!diediedie
die
O.O DIE
*muahxxxXxx!!!*
DIE!!!!!
*muahxxxXxx!!!*
DIE!!!!!
IT WAS ONLY SUPPOSED TO BE FIVE MINUTES!!!! =(
Damn. I SWORE I wouldn't sleep. I seriously did. I drank coffee and played happy music and SAT AT MY TABLE to really make sure and GUESS WHAT...I FALL ASLEEP AT MY TABLE. How freaking wonderful. I have about 4 hours to learn everything about Bio and Sejarah. Screw Math..it can wait till tomorrow.
OH wait. It IS tomorrow.
I can't believe I'm screwing up my trials laaa.. WHAT HAPPENED? I thought we were supposed to start studying in April. APRIL!!! My gosh. NOT SEPTEMBER!!! That's it la. I'm not answering any more phone calls I don't need to OR watching any TV OR sleeping until I'm really desperate. Coffee and books shall be my best friends. When I woke up just now everything was damn dark and I was being eaten alive by freaking mosquitoes you know why??!!!?!? BECAUSE THE FREAKING ELECTRICITY CHOSE TONGHT OF ALL NIGHTS TO BE SPASTIC!! ARGH!!! So I'm cramming in everything by the light of the laptop screen+small emergency lamp. This SUCKS. I hate Bio.
SCREW YOU LA FREAKING MOSQUITOES!! GO BITE SOMEONE ELSE TO DEATH OHEMEFFGOODNESS!!@!#@$#$^&%*^*^(^*^&;$%$%$^$&^!!!!!!!
Damn pissed already wei
Add Maths was pretty doable. Screwed up pengaturcaraan linear graph and completely missed ut a question in Section A because was busy chucking in last minute extra qs in B and C. Managed to do sukatan membulat question but no one else seems to have done it so I have no idea if it's right. Crapped my way through BM and Bio 1 was scarily alright.
Changed my mind. Don't hate Bio. I LOATHE IT WITH A PASSION.
Labels: rants
Sunday, September 17, 2006
oh great
He's sitting across the table from me and it's been quite a while since I've seen him. We haven't said anything to each other all night, my eyes are purposely avoiding him. He knows it. I'm staring out the window, at other people, at my phone which is useless because you are completely unreachable. He's too occupied with my brothers to attempt conversation and I'm thankful for it. I don't notice when they suddenly slip off and glance over, accidentally meeting his gaze
Shit
There's a silence and I'm dying to end the conversation before it even starts. But no, that would be beyond rude wouldn't it?
"How's the studying?"
"Not good.."
"Heh. Everyone says that.."
I sort of half shrug half smile. Even I don't know what that gesture is supposed to mean. Leave me alone already. I. don't. Want. To. Talk
There's another silence before I realise, too late, I'm supposed to ask him how he's doing. I consider asking anyway but decide I can't really be bothered to.
"You look like you haven't slept."
"I haven't.."
"Studying?"
A nod. I'm making this hard for him on purpose and for one moment I feel a bit mean and lighten up.
"How about you? How's your studying going?"
And just like that I give in and resign myself to joining in the pathetic conversation. So we talk. We talk about lectures and formats and papers. About undang. About girls. About boys. I can feel him approaching the subject and I wonder what I will say.
My brothers interrupt again and I can breathe, letting my eyes slide over to the window again.
"Hey. Wanna go for a walk around or something?"
I look straight at him for a second or two.
"No not really." And then I look away again
I'm really too tired for this shit
ARGH. I got home and slept again. It was only supposed to be for an hour =( I put the big jangly alarm clock RIGHT NEXT TO MY HEAD and I woke up at 5, completely confused. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MIDNIGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO FINISH BIO! Grr. Don' know which dingbat switched my alarm off and didn't bother waking me up. *kicks something* I feel like skipping church later 8) but I probably wont anyway. ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!!
a meme to lighten the mood a little
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I’ve been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse. [Wish didn't]
I have changed mentally over the last year.[I'm quite a lot more retarded now]
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. [maybe there's hope..MAYBE I ACTUALLY CAN SING!]
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends. [Not really...]
I'm currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex. [My mom totally counts right?]
I enjoy talking on the phone.[it would make things so much easier because I totally have trouble talking to people in person]
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God. =)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. [I don't really want to put a poor kid through the experience of having me as a mom o.O]
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends. [I wish I could say that but I'm too selfish. Hahah]
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. [HAH! What sexuality?]
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. [not that it helps..]
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced. [still too chicken for a belly piercing]
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. [OMG bungee jumpingggg =(]
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. [wish I knew how to use it in the first place]
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. [Yeah..if only I HAD a major goal/dream..life would be so much easier]
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.;)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy !!! [yes, I'm retarded that way]
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. [Oh yeah? I have ERITROSITES in mine]
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist. [I'm a doodler]
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. [this doesn't mean that I am though]
I am an adrenaline junkie…
Shit
There's a silence and I'm dying to end the conversation before it even starts. But no, that would be beyond rude wouldn't it?
"How's the studying?"
"Not good.."
"Heh. Everyone says that.."
I sort of half shrug half smile. Even I don't know what that gesture is supposed to mean. Leave me alone already. I. don't. Want. To. Talk
There's another silence before I realise, too late, I'm supposed to ask him how he's doing. I consider asking anyway but decide I can't really be bothered to.
"You look like you haven't slept."
"I haven't.."
"Studying?"
A nod. I'm making this hard for him on purpose and for one moment I feel a bit mean and lighten up.
"How about you? How's your studying going?"
And just like that I give in and resign myself to joining in the pathetic conversation. So we talk. We talk about lectures and formats and papers. About undang. About girls. About boys. I can feel him approaching the subject and I wonder what I will say.
My brothers interrupt again and I can breathe, letting my eyes slide over to the window again.
"Hey. Wanna go for a walk around or something?"
I look straight at him for a second or two.
"No not really." And then I look away again
I'm really too tired for this shit
ARGH. I got home and slept again. It was only supposed to be for an hour =( I put the big jangly alarm clock RIGHT NEXT TO MY HEAD and I woke up at 5, completely confused. IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE MIDNIGHT I WAS SUPPOSED TO FINISH BIO! Grr. Don' know which dingbat switched my alarm off and didn't bother waking me up. *kicks something* I feel like skipping church later 8) but I probably wont anyway. ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH!!
a meme to lighten the mood a little
Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I’ve tried marijuana.
I’ve been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe that honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse. [Wish didn't]
I have changed mentally over the last year.[I'm quite a lot more retarded now]
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I’m TOTALLY smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe , free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. [maybe there's hope..MAYBE I ACTUALLY CAN SING!]
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends. [Not really...]
I'm currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex. [My mom totally counts right?]
I enjoy talking on the phone.[it would make things so much easier because I totally have trouble talking to people in person]
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone.
I’m a pretty good dancer.
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God. =)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. [I don't really want to put a poor kid through the experience of having me as a mom o.O]
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I own the “South Park” movie.
I would die for my best friends. [I wish I could say that but I'm too selfish. Hahah]
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career. [HAH! What sexuality?]
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I’m obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. [not that it helps..]
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced. [still too chicken for a belly piercing]
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge. [OMG bungee jumpingggg =(]
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup. [wish I knew how to use it in the first place]
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. [Yeah..if only I HAD a major goal/dream..life would be so much easier]
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.;)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I somehow enjoyed this thingy !!! [yes, I'm retarded that way]
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can’t whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. [Oh yeah? I have ERITROSITES in mine]
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist. [I'm a doodler]
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. [this doesn't mean that I am though]
I am an adrenaline junkie…
Labels: the alter ego who thinks on occassion
Saturday, September 16, 2006
number eleven
Hahah. Happy birthday to my dad, who shares a birthday with Malaysia and Justin. My dad's 48 and still getting older. He's patient and resonable and understanding and tolerant, passionate and pretty funny and yeah...pretty cool for a dad I suppose 8) I've said it before, I wish I could be a lot more like him.
I spent the whole of last night drawing random comics on my dad's card and reading a little bit of Bio. I'm still stuck at the same freaking chapter though. o.O MUST FINISH BIO TODAY!! Argh. I can't believe I'm screwing up my trials!!!!! No actually, who am I kidding? I so knew I was going to. Grr. My freaking whichever part of the brain that controls sleep finally caved last night around 2ish and I crashed in my bed and slept for the first time in like 3 nights. Man. So now I'm feeling a lot less sleep deprived but still a little like I'm going to collapse and die any minute. Can't wait for stupid exams to be over laaaa. Lucky form 3s. Laugh at us some more la.
Had a really freaky dream the other night in which he didn't exist. I asked everyone where he was and no one, apart from two other people, had any clue who I was talking about. It wasn't exactly scary but incredibly unnerving, that feeling where you start to doubt your sanity and wonder if you'd been dreaming up your life this whole time. Mega not nice feeling to have, especially in dreams where what you think is reality is always already so warped and distorted. Wonder what it would be like if I completely disappeared off the face of the earth and never existed and my name was somehow erased from the folds of everyone's memory. We would never have done Cats I suppose. Or Cirque du Soleil. My guitar would belong to someone else. This blog wouldn't be here. He'd be with someone else, obviously. Vinyl will have one less member, ballet class would be even smaller. My dad would probably still be a smoker. Lynn would be sitting next to Soon Keat in school. Apart from that though I don't think anything else would be any different.
Tuition in 3 hours. And I'm missing the treasure hunt which sucks cos I missed Amazing Race as well =( Oh well. Go Vinyl!! WHEE!!
This song is so cute
The Postal Service- We will become silhouettes
I've got a cupboard with cans of food, filtered water,
And pictures of you and i'm not coming out
Until this is all over
And i'm looking through the glass where the light bends
At the cracks
And i'm screaming at the top of my lungs pretending
The echoes belong to someone
Someone i used to know
And we become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...
I wanted to walk through the empty streets
And feel something constant under my feet,
But all the news reports recommended that
I stay indoors
Because the air outside will make our cells
Divide at an alarming rate until our shells
Simply cannot hold all our insides in,
And that's when we'll explode
(and it won't be a pretty sight) [LOL]
And we'll become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...
And we'll become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...
And we'll become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...
And we'll become silhouettes when our bodies finally go
Ba ba ba...
Friday, September 15, 2006
Watch me sit here and blog when I should really be studying instead o.O
So anyway. I had the most freaking bipolar [it's the best word I can think of] day today. Seriously. I couldn't sleep at all last night so I was up the entire time doing nothing because even though I REALLYHONESTLYSINCERELYTRIED to study nothing was going in. And I tried even harder to go to sleep but that didn't work either so I was sort of stuck somewhere in the middle. Playing Vincent on my guitar over and over again..that sort of thing. Then morning finally came and I was like "Oh gosh FINALLY. At least now I'm supposed to be awake.." and guess what..I FALL ASLEEP. And I wake up at like seven because my alarm clock is retarded and it's pouring with rain and my stupid dog jumps all over me and I get wet and sit in the car all the way to school freezing cold which REALLYISNOTGOODFORCRAMPS@#%^!! Yeah..and then I spend the whole morning not learning anything which was a complete waste of what COULD HAVE BEEN study time AND I get in trouble with Stanley AGAIN [it happens so often it's practically part of my timetable now. English is now the period of unfortunate events] mumblegrumble. Moan and groan during break about how I should've just skipped damn school especially since we aren't allowed to skip tomorrow. Cramps were driving me crazy everything was driving me crazy the whole day was just KRAYZEE.
But then.....
=)
Heeheehee. They announced at break that there would be an Interact meeting during lunch and I was all like "ARGH not again what do they want to talk about this time aren't we like finally already retired and everything leave us ALONE already will you?" and I thought of just not going for it. Heehee. So we gathered in the Physics lab for the "meeting" but Jamaliah came and chased us out saying she needed to use it for some random reason and Jing Hang promptly announced that we're moving to the canteen room so we all got herded off to the canteen and
TA-DAAA!!!
Like a billion boxes of pizza were sitting all over the tables and there was a banner and everything and awww it was seriously so nice of the Form fours and Zabs and Hayatts =) =) =) Poor Lynnie and Yan missed it though because THEY PONTENGED. So yeah. We stuffed ourselves with pizza AND Secret Recipie =D=D=D and had an awesome lunch which was..well..awesome because in all the rush of being late I didnt have time to have breakfast and was basically hungry enough to eat people. BK was alrighty and after school I followed Ian to get his number registered because I was supposed to wait for him but I sort of ditched him and went ahead and registered mine first [this was when he was in the process of getting a new number and I FIGURED he wold register it when he got it =.=] so yeah..I accompanied him to KL Central and after that he bought me Starbucks which was really nice of him=)) Thankyew!
I can't find the receipt for my LRT card so I don't think I'll be able to get it back ='( which means I'm going to attempt to cut down on taking LRT which will be pretty tough because I miss the freaking carpool like EVERY SINGLE DAY. Rawr. Oh well. =)
Not being able to call or message is really killing me atm though =( Like really really really really really REALLYREALLYREALLYYYY...
Off to study BIO!!!! lalalalalala!!!!
BYE-O!!
So anyway. I had the most freaking bipolar [it's the best word I can think of] day today. Seriously. I couldn't sleep at all last night so I was up the entire time doing nothing because even though I REALLYHONESTLYSINCERELYTRIED to study nothing was going in. And I tried even harder to go to sleep but that didn't work either so I was sort of stuck somewhere in the middle. Playing Vincent on my guitar over and over again..that sort of thing. Then morning finally came and I was like "Oh gosh FINALLY. At least now I'm supposed to be awake.." and guess what..I FALL ASLEEP. And I wake up at like seven because my alarm clock is retarded and it's pouring with rain and my stupid dog jumps all over me and I get wet and sit in the car all the way to school freezing cold which REALLYISNOTGOODFORCRAMPS@#%^!! Yeah..and then I spend the whole morning not learning anything which was a complete waste of what COULD HAVE BEEN study time AND I get in trouble with Stanley AGAIN [it happens so often it's practically part of my timetable now. English is now the period of unfortunate events] mumblegrumble. Moan and groan during break about how I should've just skipped damn school especially since we aren't allowed to skip tomorrow. Cramps were driving me crazy everything was driving me crazy the whole day was just KRAYZEE.
But then.....
=)
Heeheehee. They announced at break that there would be an Interact meeting during lunch and I was all like "ARGH not again what do they want to talk about this time aren't we like finally already retired and everything leave us ALONE already will you?" and I thought of just not going for it. Heehee. So we gathered in the Physics lab for the "meeting" but Jamaliah came and chased us out saying she needed to use it for some random reason and Jing Hang promptly announced that we're moving to the canteen room so we all got herded off to the canteen and
TA-DAAA!!!
Like a billion boxes of pizza were sitting all over the tables and there was a banner and everything and awww it was seriously so nice of the Form fours and Zabs and Hayatts =) =) =) Poor Lynnie and Yan missed it though because THEY PONTENGED. So yeah. We stuffed ourselves with pizza AND Secret Recipie =D=D=D and had an awesome lunch which was..well..awesome because in all the rush of being late I didnt have time to have breakfast and was basically hungry enough to eat people. BK was alrighty and after school I followed Ian to get his number registered because I was supposed to wait for him but I sort of ditched him and went ahead and registered mine first [this was when he was in the process of getting a new number and I FIGURED he wold register it when he got it =.=] so yeah..I accompanied him to KL Central and after that he bought me Starbucks which was really nice of him=)) Thankyew!
I can't find the receipt for my LRT card so I don't think I'll be able to get it back ='( which means I'm going to attempt to cut down on taking LRT which will be pretty tough because I miss the freaking carpool like EVERY SINGLE DAY. Rawr. Oh well. =)
Not being able to call or message is really killing me atm though =( Like really really really really really REALLYREALLYREALLYYYY...
Off to study BIO!!!! lalalalalala!!!!
BYE-O!!
Thursday, September 14, 2006
SHOULD I GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW TODAY LATER????!?!?!?!
i really really really really really really really don't feel like it. =S
i really really really really really really really don't feel like it. =S
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
vincent
OH MY GOODNESS THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
See I just wasted the last goodness knows how long downloading limewire just so I could download Vincent and EVERYONE knows how extremely fast and competent and wonderfully cooperative limewire is.
I wish..
And not only is it one of those gorgeous songs you can listen to over and over again, it's also one of those songs that's just so nice to play on guitar that you can't help playing it over and over and over and over!!! [except for that weird solo bit o.O] ARGH!!! STOPWASTINGTIMEGOSTUDYYYY
This is all your fault =( hmph.
Slept for about 3++ hours last night attempting to study BK..woke up with mega puffy eyes just like I was dreading O.O and didn't manage to finish even HALF of Acts even though I skipped chapel AND assembly and hid behind the shed to study and as a result I had no clue what half the questions on Acts were talking about o.O o.O And heehee everyone thought I was dumb enough to skip school my goodness...I don't have THAT much guts people you should know that by now..
Hmmhmmm...yeah apart from the fact that I'm definitely failing BK today was quite a
I wanna hear you laugh like you really mean it
Woo..snow patrol kicks serious ass!
SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEETTTTT!!!!!!!!!!
*INHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALE
INHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEEEEEE*
My BK exam is in about 3 hours and WTH I FELL ASLEEP LAST NIGHT AT AROUND 12 AND OMGOODNESS I HAVE NOT TOUCHED ACTS AT ALLLL!!!! I'M SO SCREEEWWWEEEEDDD
But ah...I really can't be bothered anymore at this point of time.
I'm going to stop talking about anything and everything altogether so as to avoid jinxing anymore things. Seriously...
Hoboy...Jars of Clay O.O ='(
*INHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALE
INHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEINHALEEXHALEEEEEE*
My BK exam is in about 3 hours and WTH I FELL ASLEEP LAST NIGHT AT AROUND 12 AND OMGOODNESS I HAVE NOT TOUCHED ACTS AT ALLLL!!!! I'M SO SCREEEWWWEEEEDDD
But ah...I really can't be bothered anymore at this point of time.
I'm going to stop talking about anything and everything altogether so as to avoid jinxing anymore things. Seriously...
Hoboy...Jars of Clay O.O ='(
Labels: oh buggerr..
Monday, September 11, 2006
Hey you...
Thanks for making me smile today =)
You and your charm and dashing good looks... *pops that head*
=)=)=)))
Labels: =)
Friday, September 08, 2006
Careers day was today and now I'm even furthur away from choosing a career than I was before @.@ *is confused* I was sort of already resigned to doing Engineering because
1. My dad will be happy
2. I guess I sort of already like Physics anyway [some parts anyway] so what the heck?
3. It's not like I can think of anything else I can do anyway
But then after today graphic design suddenly seems so much more possible. The idea of doing that and constantly having to churn out cool graphics and stuff like that is still bloody scary but now there's this tiny tiny idea in my head that I might JUST be able to cope..and I know I'll definitely enjoy it I mean..doodling for the rest of my life? Like how cool is that? But Engineering is still nice and safe and like..you don't need to have TALENT to do it or need to prove yourself all the time and like..no one's going to look at you and go like "What crap drawing for an Engineer" because..like..engineers dont draw!!! much.....EYEDEEKAY I'MSOCONFUSEDNOW. I put my name down for the Engineer talk but, just like last year when our Arts and Design dude was an hour late, the Engineer dude didn't show up after like..forever so I left and bumped into Benjamin and we both swapped ourselves out of the Engineering talk. I should've just stuck with my desicion to switch because by the time I got to Arts and Design [and Architecture] the Arts and Design part was over and they were talking about Architecture so I pretty much missed everything I wanted to hear. o.O O.O What should I do? What should I do? everyone else is like so mega DECIDED and I'm still swimming about trying to CHOOOOOSEEE ARGH!!!!
Maybe I should just flip a coin =)
Steph Lee has actually already applied for 3 ballet universities in New Zealand and South Africa. I'm so insanely jealous, not because her parents let her, but because she actually has the guts to go ahead and do it. nnnngggkkkk. O.O Butt...liiikeee....MEHHHHH
Wow..I used to want it so so so much. And I guess a mini part of me still does..but I never really had the whole "natural talent" thing for it anyway so it's safer not to try. It sucks, though. Knowing there'll be a day when I'm gonna hang up my pointe shoes for good. =( On the other hand..NO MORE BLISTERS!! Muahah.
*gives Lynn a big hug* =)
Labels: MEH
Thursday, September 07, 2006
My goodness. I just waited at the LRT station for a marathon 3[ish] hours. While my driver was stuck in a massive KL jam and my mom was out in SS2. o.O Thank God it was raining and I had some company =) I have a feeling I was talking too loudly on the phone though because one dude walking past me thought I was talking to him and turned around and gave me this really weird stare O.O My Putra card got cardnapped on Monday because apparently there was something wrong and it REFUSED to read even though it was like brand new [grr..mumblegrumble] so I had to leave it with them and they told me to come back today to get it but when I went, it wasn't ready. So apparently I have to go back again tomorrow. Rawr..
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
School was slightly better today. Was freaking tired last nigt but after talking to him a little and getting a REALLY LONG sleep [no studying was done unfortunately =(] today felt okay =) Elsa sang Did You Feel the Mountains Tremble which made me think of Sevenfold even though it was different from how we always do it =) couldn't help smiling in my head the whole time =)) I miss those days. And we got our Physics tests back and I did alright. And we had a quiz during BK instead of BK during BK. And we talked a little during lunch and really that was pretty much what turned the day around.
You aren't okay and I know it and I want to say something to make you feel better but I never know what to say. I'm not good at that sort of thing. But I'm here to listen if you need someone to tell things to =( Everyday when I sit next to you in school I want to reach over and give you a hug. Hang in there..you're a lot stronger than I am. =)
It's awesome that Yannie's back at school again =) it really felt like there was something missing while she was gone. And it feels like I haven't talked to Stef and Bee in ages. Wargh. I need to stop falling asleep during break and lunch.
Mm..careers day is tomorrow and I'm one of the only 3 girls who asked for Engineering. No clue why I did that when I don't even want to do it [sorry dad]. But then again I don't think I'll be able to survive doing anything other than something safe and conventional so yeah...it's an option. o.O o.O
Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
School was slightly better today. Was freaking tired last nigt but after talking to him a little and getting a REALLY LONG sleep [no studying was done unfortunately =(] today felt okay =) Elsa sang Did You Feel the Mountains Tremble which made me think of Sevenfold even though it was different from how we always do it =) couldn't help smiling in my head the whole time =)) I miss those days. And we got our Physics tests back and I did alright. And we had a quiz during BK instead of BK during BK. And we talked a little during lunch and really that was pretty much what turned the day around.
You aren't okay and I know it and I want to say something to make you feel better but I never know what to say. I'm not good at that sort of thing. But I'm here to listen if you need someone to tell things to =( Everyday when I sit next to you in school I want to reach over and give you a hug. Hang in there..you're a lot stronger than I am. =)
It's awesome that Yannie's back at school again =) it really felt like there was something missing while she was gone. And it feels like I haven't talked to Stef and Bee in ages. Wargh. I need to stop falling asleep during break and lunch.
Mm..careers day is tomorrow and I'm one of the only 3 girls who asked for Engineering. No clue why I did that when I don't even want to do it [sorry dad]. But then again I don't think I'll be able to survive doing anything other than something safe and conventional so yeah...it's an option. o.O o.O
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Man. It gets really tiring after a while. Always saying that we wanna fix things but never doing anything about it. What good will talking do if we've tried it so many times and things still aren't much better. I guess wait and see..some things are sort of improving at least. But can't wait too long..we've already been waiting for over 4 years. Let's not make it 5 ya
"I think we need some magic"
Yeah Yan I think so too =)
School's been getting more and more tiring everyday and it's quite annoying. I wanna sit with everyone and laugh and joke around about random stuff like we always used to but after a while I feel so drained and I get this urge to go sit by myself somewhere. It never works though, unfortunately. There is virtually NO WHERE in the school where you can escape to without someone or other coming after you. Just for the record, I'm fine and NOTHING IS WRONG. I just need alone time.
L- Lynnie. You're a moron. I love you too. =)
TRIALSTRIALSTRIALSTRIALS!! Just because I've suddenly been granted a miracle week doesn't mean I can waste it. En says she completely gave up on Bio and still scored a C in SPM. Am sorely tempted to do the same but can't quite bring myself to flunk an exam on purpose.
Mann....
"I think we need some magic"
Yeah Yan I think so too =)
School's been getting more and more tiring everyday and it's quite annoying. I wanna sit with everyone and laugh and joke around about random stuff like we always used to but after a while I feel so drained and I get this urge to go sit by myself somewhere. It never works though, unfortunately. There is virtually NO WHERE in the school where you can escape to without someone or other coming after you. Just for the record, I'm fine and NOTHING IS WRONG. I just need alone time.
L- Lynnie. You're a moron. I love you too. =)
TRIALSTRIALSTRIALSTRIALS!! Just because I've suddenly been granted a miracle week doesn't mean I can waste it. En says she completely gave up on Bio and still scored a C in SPM. Am sorely tempted to do the same but can't quite bring myself to flunk an exam on purpose.
Mann....
Labels: =(
Monday, September 04, 2006
SPASTIC DAY ALERT!!!
Yeah. I had another retarded today. If it weren't for the fact that I never PMS and it's the completely wrong time of the month anyway, I would've sworn I was PMSing o.O Last night was kinda wonky..I stayed up with the laptop in my room and my iTunes playing trying to study soap and detergent but I couldn't understand a thing so I gave up and FINALLY [after 1.5 years] decided to go and learn up the salts chapter once and for all. Muahah!! I know how to test for nitrates now!! NO MORE GUESSING!! WHEE! ^.^
Anyway..woke up feeling woozy and slighty warmer-than-usual-but-not-warm-enough-to-be-a-fever. Was also energyless the whole day for some strange reason. OH! We had this Physics ceramah which was SO UTTERLY BORING I ended up with a page full of doodle after that. Mehhh. Maybe I should've paid attention because like..apparently there was important stuff o.O But all I remember was him going "In the exam.....*pauses as if he's about to reveal some incredible secret* you should NEVER. EVER. LEAVE. BLANKS! Just tembak!" and then me thinking "What the hell..my brother could've told you that" and then I promptly stopped paying attention.
I think towards the end of the ceramah was when my mood started to go wonky. Had to finish up Bio homework and try and disguise it to look like I was taking notes and then had to rush up to class to do the rest of it but then Shanon came in and did his whole stupid thing and usually it's like whatever..can tahan and all la but today I felt like..idk..blowing up at him *kaboosh*. After he finally went away I seriously had no more energy left for anything. Couldn't even sit up in Bio [or Add Maths or History for that matter] and I felt like..some video game dude when his life has run out and like he just falls-OH NO!!! I FELT LIKE A SIM!! You know how you can be extremely evil if you want to and starve your sim dude for days and days and like not let him bathe or sleep or talk to people and he keeps making those faces and funny noises at you and after quite sometime he just falls on the floor and conks out...yeah that's basically what I did. I conked out. Went to chapel area to sit on my own for a while during lunch and I felt a little better after that. =) Always works. And I bumped into Chi Ching while LRTing back and had a little chat with her. By the time I got home I was feeling heaps better =)) and the urge to punch someone hard had completely vanished.
Mmmmmm. Off to study Bio now! By tomorrow I should know EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT HORMONES!! AND BONES!!! AND WHILE I'M AT IT I'LL HAVE A MILLION BUCKS AND A MAROON HIPPO IN MY GARDEN!!! I'm offff whee!
Whoo. Soonk sent me this. It was from the day me and Kimmie decided to spam his phone and it was supposed to be a spaz face picture but Kimmie looks perfectly normal. Hmph.
Anyway..woke up feeling woozy and slighty warmer-than-usual-but-not-warm-enough-to-be-a-fever. Was also energyless the whole day for some strange reason. OH! We had this Physics ceramah which was SO UTTERLY BORING I ended up with a page full of doodle after that. Mehhh. Maybe I should've paid attention because like..apparently there was important stuff o.O But all I remember was him going "In the exam.....*pauses as if he's about to reveal some incredible secret* you should NEVER. EVER. LEAVE. BLANKS! Just tembak!" and then me thinking "What the hell..my brother could've told you that" and then I promptly stopped paying attention.
I think towards the end of the ceramah was when my mood started to go wonky. Had to finish up Bio homework and try and disguise it to look like I was taking notes and then had to rush up to class to do the rest of it but then Shanon came in and did his whole stupid thing and usually it's like whatever..can tahan and all la but today I felt like..idk..blowing up at him *kaboosh*. After he finally went away I seriously had no more energy left for anything. Couldn't even sit up in Bio [or Add Maths or History for that matter] and I felt like..some video game dude when his life has run out and like he just falls-OH NO!!! I FELT LIKE A SIM!! You know how you can be extremely evil if you want to and starve your sim dude for days and days and like not let him bathe or sleep or talk to people and he keeps making those faces and funny noises at you and after quite sometime he just falls on the floor and conks out...yeah that's basically what I did. I conked out. Went to chapel area to sit on my own for a while during lunch and I felt a little better after that. =) Always works. And I bumped into Chi Ching while LRTing back and had a little chat with her. By the time I got home I was feeling heaps better =)) and the urge to punch someone hard had completely vanished.
Mmmmmm. Off to study Bio now! By tomorrow I should know EVERYTHING THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT HORMONES!! AND BONES!!! AND WHILE I'M AT IT I'LL HAVE A MILLION BUCKS AND A MAROON HIPPO IN MY GARDEN!!! I'm offff whee!
Whoo. Soonk sent me this. It was from the day me and Kimmie decided to spam his phone and it was supposed to be a spaz face picture but Kimmie looks perfectly normal. Hmph.
Labels: nerd posts
Sunday, September 03, 2006
OH MY GOODNESS. GOD IS SO GREAT!! SERIOUSLY!!
Well actually it's more like my own stupidity but whatever, I'd prefer to think it's a miracle.
So anyway, I've been living the past few weeks in absolute DREAD thinking that trials are only like a week away and I'm so so screwed yada yada. So I check the timetable today, just to find out which paper I'll be flunking first and GUESS WHAT!!!
Trials are in TWO weeks time!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I mean, yeah it might not sound like much difference but HALLELUJAH it's a hell lot better than having one week left to prepare and yeah, there's BK on Wednesday in a week's time but I already knew I'll be flunking that so who cares [and besides, mom's given me official permission to not turn up for the paper O.O *is tempted*]
So yeah. I miraculously have a extra week and I'M GOING TO USE IT TO STUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I wonder when this craig fellow is going to figure out that his wifi is not password protected and that I've been hijacking it ever since we got the laptop everytime mom kills the modem on me. :D I'm pulling a Steph. Muahah.
Apart from that, the emo bug has spread. Which is bad. =( I reall have no mood to do this whole thing anymore, it's so incredibly dumb. We need to talk. Can we please talk? I know someone [more than one?] out there is pissed at me, can you please just tell me why? It would make everything so much less complicated.
Mmmph=(
Friday, September 01, 2006
Hm. The interact installation was today, marking the very very last of our involvement in anything interact whatsoever [i think] *wipes away a tear* I suppose it IS kinda sad..after all those billions of times we've been stuck in school for hours on end arranging classes and doing games and backdrops and serving food and starving and carrying really heavy things up really long flights of stairs..buruh kasar-ing..decoring..everythinging.. and hey Zabs CRIED okay so i have a feeling she's gonna miss us =P We ended up arranging the hall for the form 4s even though like it was THEIR installation but they did a pretty good job on everything else..the deco was kinda funky *COUGHditchtheballoonsthough* and the food was goooood ^.^ and yeah. That was that and we actually got to leave early. Again. Pretty amazing huh? =)
Sher ditched me and pontenged school today. Hmph. Now I'm really tempted to skip school the whole of next week or something because there's really no reason to go to school anymore...it's not like we ever do anything except I'll probably be sleeping more than studying and that's like totally not good.
Tuition tomorrow! Whee! Totally can't wait. In the meantime I should probably handcuff myself to my textbooks. Bah
Sher ditched me and pontenged school today. Hmph. Now I'm really tempted to skip school the whole of next week or something because there's really no reason to go to school anymore...it's not like we ever do anything except I'll probably be sleeping more than studying and that's like totally not good.
Tuition tomorrow! Whee! Totally can't wait. In the meantime I should probably handcuff myself to my textbooks. Bah
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